After the heat of the day, I found myself in the garden at 10.30pm, just sitting with the dogs. It was so much cooler and it was lovely from the humid heat of the day. I decided to get my pruners and started cutting back the weeds. It felt so calming and without all the day time noise. I thought if I write this on here, you may all think I had lost the plot but Google tells me lots of people do it! so I am not so crazy. I do have floodlights and the only thing I would advise, if you try it, is get plenty of insect repellent on you as I didnt and am regretting that! But it could be a new way for me to chill after a hot day

Good morning guys!! I wanted to share something I'm doing in the chance it might help someone else 🥰 So what I've started doing is deciding what I want to get done that hour.. then setting a 20 minute timer and playing a playlist that is an hour long. Why? Because it gives my brain a 20-minute "buffer", if that makes sense. It takes ALL the pressure off. Because WORST CASE scenario, it takes my brain and body 20 minutes to warm up to even start the thing.. and I STILL have 40 minutes to complete it. So once 20 minute timer goes off, I immediately reset it. Then turn music back on. Anyway I wanted to share because I did that this morning. At first I set an hour timer but realized no..that's not quite right. Now as always, you might not have to get as nitty gritty/granular as me. But *I* do haha. If I want any sort of quality of life for myself as well (I always ALWAYS give it to daughter🥰). So all that to say, because I listen to the same playlist every morning now, my brain "recognizes" oh first song is for us (meaning me, inner child, subconscious etc😅) to start getting out of bed. Hard to explain but the bottom line is I'm both struggling AND finding ways that are changing the game for myself and all I want to do is help if possible! Bonus: the songs are basically self-affirming so it feels like I'm getting a big bang for my effort buck! And the fact is, by doing this protocol this morning, I was able to get out of bed moisturize face get stuff together to bring downstairs make it downstairs take vitamins prep water make protein oatmeal all in 20 minutes WITHOUT rushing. 🤯 while ALSO saying good morning to daughter etc.. and YES I still had intrusive thoughts but the music helped me go back to the music and dance a bit etc. The music "carried me" so to speak. Plus, every "rep" i do with the self affirming (but genuinely I like it so it doesn't feel preachy haha!) music, HAS to be helping me in some way! It is better to TRY that than to not try, right?🤔

This is my focus for this week. This lovely little girl, 10yo, found as a stray ended up in the pound before a rescue centre took her in. She arrived a couple of hours ago, and is in her forever home now. This week, everything else can wait.

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realized something wild: the freeze I keep hitting mid-sentence isn't my brain shutting down. It's my brain moving too fast for my own executive function to keep up. I've been calling myself scattered for years when I was actually overwhelmed by my own processing speed. 🤯 I make sense. 🙏🏼