Just did the first part of my Operating Manual and realized I've been putting myself "far down the totem pole" in rooms where there's no hierarchy at all. The mismatch was never my ability to connect - it was being graded on a way of talking my brain was never built for. Onto Section 2.

I just joined and looking for help and support. I have ADD not HD with servere RSD … I think I lost the love of my life because of it

This is me the day I finally found my style. I am a cross between artist/writer and advocate (especially for animals). I've gone from radio broadcasting to mixed-media artist. I figured out late in life that I have ADHD. In some ways I consider my different brain a gift that informs my art and my writing. But it never feels like I finish things or do the right thing at the right time, following the "rules" set down by someone else. I want to feel like I belong, so for years I started little groups and the people they attractd became the people I belonged with, or felt I did. I would love to be part of a community that helps each other and values each other and lasts.

Six weeks done. What I'm carrying forward: better sleep, a morning routine that holds, and workouts as my one big focus for the next 90 days. I still catch the voice and redirect it, and now I'm learning to catch my own wins instead of deleting them. Leaning on support wasn't a failure, it was the point. Onward.

Hey y’all… sorry I haven’t been as involved here the past couple days. I started training for a new job yesterday and it’s got me all turned around. We also have company visiting from out of town too. For someone who NEEDS routine, this is tough. Anyways…. Hope you all are doing ok and I hope to be able to get in here more once I get things figured out.