One thing I have identified about ‘ my’ ADHD is that it is very strongly linked to rejection sensitivity dysphoria. @Jim Ebbelaar could you talk more about this tomorrow/day5 please? Many thanks.

But my win is to realize that I have to accept where I am and some things work and some things don't. So far, I am and feel incomplete. My issue continues to be action and not knowledge. Like a smoker, they know it can kill them and it hurts them and all that, and if they could stop with just more knowledge they would. I debated even putting this comment in here because I don't want it to look like criticism. The course itself is great for EVERY brain and every human. But for the adhd procrastinator in overwhelm that looks forward to their evenings where they can do chill and wind down things and actually have time for themselves and be temporarily relieved on the days burdens and lack of interesting things, it is not especially working for me. It seems it is very insightful for many. I am so happy for you all to whom much of this is new. The ai in day 3 zeroed in on one limiting belief and ignored the rest. I know I have several and I'm clear on many, and probably have others that have not been insightfully revealed, which is why I'm still not driven to finish what I start without willpower. Using willpower to create strategy so you don't need willpower doesn't work. That has been my process forever. Then the ai told me on day 3 that it wouldn't reframe for me and on day 4 today that I was very clear on what I knew and to look forward to day 5. Ok then. Not helpful. The basic building blocks of change continue to elude me. Is it easier for people who don't have kids and a mortgage and have sleep issues because of world events and life in general? I never have time for myself except late at night when others go to bed and my only comfort pleasure is late night tv after a long uncomfortable day. I look for stimulation, as is an adhd thing, and when you don't get it during the day you have to find it somewhere. Making my night boring would make the whole day painful. Why would I do that? I don't just want to be more efficient and productive or even just wealthy and more miserable. I want to be fulfilled.

When finishing watching the recording, I had an urge to check social media, but I said NO. Not in a restricting way, but in a "I actually have better things to do" way 😀 I think my reason for not finishing projects and having trouble doing them in the first place, is the risk of failure. But I realised that for me, failure was not being the best. And that not being the best, is still fine. I have trained to be an illustrator my entire life, but have not actively pursued it, because I could see that many was better than me. What inspired me to try to start around a year ago, was reading books to my kids, where some of the illustrations are really bad technically. But I still had that voice in my head saying "yes, you don't like the illustrations, buy they are illustrating books, you are not, so your illustrations must lack something/is not the style people like" and so on. But maybe it is just because I have not really tried! Speaking of illustrations and looking back, I found this self-portrait from around 20 years ago. It say (from the outside) - Metal. Don't reveal anything going on beneath the smooth surface. - Black granite. Scares most people away, but are maybe not that hard to get through. - Glass. Breaks easily. - ? I don't know yet. And I still don't know. But I will work on my self-image and visualise a respected illustrator, that is finishing her projects without procrastination 👍😀

@Jim Ebbelaar: Whatever crack cocaine you put into this challenge is absolutely working, and is definitely applicable to more neurotypes than *just* ADHD in the clinical sense. Proof: I've finished 2 open loops this week: 1. Contacting my client about an extension 2. Writing the script for said client. I was intending for each of them, in that order, to be the open loop I finish for the challenge. After day 3, I: - somehow did most of the morning launch protocol without having even known about it - was on time and activated for the entire day, - entirely automated my own scriptwriting gig with Claude's free plan (Projects and custom writing styles) and the deep research and custom GPTs features from ChatGPT. Needless to say, this has probably been the most outwardly productive 4 day stretch of my entire life, and I've been struggling with both Autism *and* ADHD for 22 years; and, if all goes well, no longer counting. And that's not even mentioning the breakthroughs from the deep questions. I've yet to complete the final 3 deep questions as of writing this. I'm certain I'll have MOST, if not all of my mind laid to bare before me, and I'm perfectly fine with that.

Today is day 5. But first, read this if you're behind. We started this week with over 200 of us showing up live. Some of you have been here every single day. Some of you watched Day 1 and then life happened. Some of you missed a day, felt the guilt kick in, and that familiar voice started whispering: "See? You can't even finish a free challenge." That voice is lying. It's running old code. Outdated software telling you that falling behind means failing. It doesn't. Everything is still there waiting for you. Every session, replay, AI question. Nothing has expired. The classroom has it all, organized step by step. And if you sat down today or this weekend and gave yourself about two hours, you could watch every replay and answer all 15 AI questions. That's it. Two hours to unlock your full personal transformation report, that might just change how you see yourself and honestly completely change your life like it did for many. And you have the entire weekend to do it. No rush. No pressure. Just you, the replays, and the AI questions at your own pace. This is your chance to prove to yourself that you can actually finish. Not because someone is forcing you, but because you chose to come back. That alone breaks the cycle. That alone rewrites the story of "I never follow through." And that full report? It only gets created when you complete all 15 questions. If you're sitting at Day 1 or Day 2 right now, your report is waiting for you. And believe me... it's worth it. So here's what to do: 1. Go to the classroom 2. Start where you left off 3. Watch the replays (you can even do 1.5x speed) 4. Answer your AI questions using voice, it helps you go deeper 5. Do the micro-tasks, they take minutes not hours Don't try to make it perfect. Just press play and start. Messy action beats perfect inaction. Every single time. Remember what we said on Day 1: if you fall behind, just come back. The people in that testimonial video? They almost quit too. They came back. And it changed everything for them.