I just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and I discovered something: I always thought the problem was my effort, but actually my mind works like "a mist that gradually clears." My clarity arrives on its own schedule, not when the world demands it. And it turns out that the words I would say to my 22-year-old self are the ones I most need to hear today.

How is everyone? I just deployed (still am but I'm almost done with my list] what I'm calling 5 minute wins! I understand not everyone NEEDS to do this. But some of us do, so I wanted to share in case it helps someone 🥰 I have to be ready for my appointment at 9:10 So what I did is figure out the steps required in order to do that. Wrote those down. And figured out how many 5-minute segments are in that amount of time. And assigned a "task" to a 5 minute slot This gave proof to my brain that we CAN do it. And it also allows for the "scaffolding" that I need.

Today I had an appointment I did NOT want to go to. In my head? I had already: ❌ Rescheduled it ❌ Cancelled it ❌ Pushed it to "next week" …about 100 times before I even got out of bed 🛌 My avoidance was so loud that instead of planning to go, I: 🧹 Tidied the entire living room 🧹 Cleaned upstairs 🧹 Found corners of the house I forgot existed (ADHD productivity = doing literally anything except the thing 🌀) And then somewhere in all that scrubbing, a tiny voice landed 💡 "JUST TAKE THE PAIN UP FRONT." To be honest it was more like @Jim Ebbelaar was enthusiastically screaming in my head, suggesting that I could also just go and take the pain now... instead of avoiding... and keep living in that state for another week.... In Dutch we have this perfect phrase: 🍏 door de zure appel heen bijten. Bite the sour apple. Just go through it. Don't drag it out for another week of dread. Take it now and be free tonight ✨ So I got in the car 🚗 I drove there 🛣️ I sat through it 🪑 I endured the pain 😝 I came home 🏡 It was hard. AND. It's done 🎯 No rescheduling. No "tomorrow Renée." No 100 more mental cancellations. Just… done 💐 If there's something you've been avoiding all week, this is your sign 🌟 Take the zure appel today 🍏 Future-you will be SO grateful tonight 💖 What's YOUR zure appel this week? Drop it in the comments and let's eat them together 👇🌈

I finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realized something: I was diagnosed with the wrong thing first, and spent years thinking I was just bad at following the rules everyone else seemed to follow easily. Turns out the effort my brain puts in is real, it's just invisible to everyone but me 😅

Day 3. Was told to watch myself in a loop. Can't quite work that one out. Hoping I'll have a chance to work it out later. If anyone can help with defining what a loop is in this context (finishing the loop) I'd be most grateful.