I’ll record a message sometime this weekend for wins, but I’m going to need to sleep and process my transformation report. It is really unexpectedly insightful. It’s set out in writing things I’ve always known deep down but never fully expressed or articulated even in my thoughts or dreams. Seriously, it’s like some kind of witchcraft!! I’ll probably have tears over the weekend. For now I’m a little in shock. Thank you Jim and thank you everyone else for sharing this experience.

Sarah ( I can't remember your last name now 🙈 lol). @Sarah Kristensen I just found a post by you about this that this is for, so edited my post with you now tagged in it properly 😆 lol! Regarding the struggle with questions. You asked me what ones I read to help me answers mine. I'm behind so I am able to read the ones people have written for the correct days that I am catching up with. For me, I always struggle to start without some guidance/examples. It's like my mind is blank and needs a jump start to get going. It's all in there, but until I have seen examples, I struggle to visualise it and get it out. Really frustrating! I hope that helps! Wait for some to have shared there learnings and then try again. Or if you can ask someone that's with you for an example, it might help jump start your brain to get going.

Old belief. 'You never learn, you will never get better, no matter how hard you try, you keep proving to yourself that you can't do it, why don't you learn?' 'Things will never get better, you are stupid and unlovable, you're not relationship material and always mess up, no one will ever want to stay with you once they get to know you and they will all leave eventually. Why do you keep putting yourself through the inevitable, when you know this always happens. You're a burden, a pain, a nightmare, no good, you can't look after yourself let alone anyone else, it's no wonder they leave.' Where it came from. Very critical mother, teachers, bullies. New belief. 'I am strong, clever, intelligent, funny, honest, kind and caring', 'I work hard and am passionate and that makes what I do great', 'I love with all my heart and people appreciate me and all I do for them and love me so much back', 'I am a good loyal partner and anyone would be lucky to have me for all I do for them', 'I can do most things I put my hand to and a lot more than most and am proud of it'. My future statement. I would be happy whether I was in a relationship or not, content in my own company. I would feel confident and have my own crafts business up and running and doing well. My energy would be good and no longer constantly drained from the endless overthinking and worrying. I would be proud of myself and have a routine that worked for me not others. I would put my needs before others and not worry about what they think. My social life would be alive again and I'd enjoy being able to go out and have fun from time to time and not feel guilty for having me time and know I deserve it and be ok with that.

Anyone else here hesitate over smashing the thumbs up because they want to send a GIANT HUG instead. These posts are so moving. It feels very safe here to share deeply. I just want to send out hearts not that dratted thumb.... @Jim Ebbelaar

🎭 The mask I've been wearing most: The perfectionist 😮‍💨 How exhausting it's been: It has controlled my life completely since I was 12-15 years old (and now I'm 56!!!). It has meant that I have never had the energy to do anything other than just exist from one day to the next. Every night I have collapsed in front of the TV, berating myself for wasting my life. 👶 What I loved as a kid (before the masks): playing, moving my body, swimming, hand stands, head stands, climbing trees, bicycling, drawing, forming things with my hands, talking to connect and ping pong opinions and stories, fantasizing. ⚡️ Friction Audit complete, this are the exact steps i have to take: 1. Find a piece of paper and a pen 🗒️🖊️ 2. Put it on my desk 3. Write my questions for the school leader I have to call 📝 4. Find cell phone📱 5. Find email with his phone number 📧 6. Write the phone number on the paper 7. Call him 📲