....if I am.not suppose to be posting this. I tried posting twice and both times it didn't work. So third times the charm. If something doesn't work after trying twice & trice I'll usually give up. Basically I was saying I was missing a piece that helps me pull through with the new challenge. I am pretty positive I found it with a certain book. One of the tasks is meditation with breathwork, so this aligns with the tasks in both Level 2&1. I'm really glad I came across this while reading an article about self love. It's THE one thing I've always tried to do/accomplish and never succeeded sadly. Everyone tells you to just love yourself, do things for you, practices self care and mental diet. Well that's easy to say if you don't have trauma and ADHD or neither.... Having to always work 18x harder than anyone else is literally physically depleting. And often times we already run on fumes just showering, eating and doing other stuff that's just normal for everyone else. Anyway I'm glad I stumbled across this and I am reading it, even though I simultaneously am watching yt. Yeah not great, but better than not reading/doing something for myself at all.

Just got home.... I will say I did NOT do the best while away. Ate foods that I know I shouldn't (I just mean junk food), didnt drink enough water, didnt get exercise.......But i did get a great amount of Sun, I socialized (with people)🤣🤣🤣, I was actually able to sit with my thoughts too(this never happends, I am always floundering like a fish out of water with my thoughts), did grounding, got some quality sleep, did breath work and best of all QUALITY time with my family! So i guess when I write it down like this..... it was not toooooo bad. I am going with more positives then negatives.... Not to get back on track and not let this hault my progress.... I am ready let's go!!!