I had another thought, maybe this would be smarter. Take the Days Inn job for now and once im up to par with working again than reapply at the hotel I want in the first place with Marriott Bonvoy Hotels in my city. I dont want to mess up my future opportunities before im up to par with working again. Marriott hotels hire frequently and they also have lots of hotels in my city.

...Which hits a bit harder than it used to now that I've been learning that I feel behind in my own life. Also, I don't like feeling exposed or sharing but I figured I'd challenge myself to be brave and at least share the snippets my assessment provided me as I answered each of the five sets of three questions: "1) Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and already realized something wild: my "I can't get started" problem isn't about laziness. It's that I learned somewhere that if I'm not already great at something, I shouldn't be doing it at all. Even things I love. That voice has been running the show for years and I never named it until now. 2) Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that the four roles I play (perfectionist, people pleaser, control freak, and the invisible one) aren't my personality. They're guards I built to protect a creative kid who loved to sing, write poems, and live inside her imagination. Turns out my "authentic self" isn't someone I need to become. She's someone I already was. 3) Just realized the voice in my head telling me I'm "just lazy" isn't even mine - it's an inherited script. And the kicker? I already have evidence against it. I cook meals for my future self. I record myself singing and it sounds good. Turns out the story I've been believing doesn't match the receipts. 4) The mirror principle just clicked. My overflowing inbox isn't a productivity issue - it's the exact same futility I feel about my emotions, my music, my whole life. More keeps coming in than I can process. Turns out the question underneath all of it is the same one: will I ever catch up to my own life? 5) Just completed all 5 sections of the Awakening Assessment, and I realized my "ideal day" wasn't really about performing - it was about finally being told I was "good enough to be there." Turns out I've been measuring my impact by whether other people take my advice, instead of by what I actually offered. Wild what 15 questions can surface"