The mirror principle just clicked. My living room has been frozen in a chapter that ended years ago, and so has my relationship with my own body. I'd rather see bins of chaos than fake-organized cupboards, which means I refuse to pretend things are resolved when they aren't. Turns out my space and my health have been telling the same story.

Even though part of me feels VERY scared. But in reality I did nothing wrong. I FELT angry, but I didn't DO anything wrong. But I ultimately realized this might help someone if they're wondering an example of emotional dysregulation 😅 So! I attended day 5 on here.🥳 After doing my morning routine etc. Was having a GREAT day connecting with people on the call etc. Like truly. Then I went to lay down because I WAS tired. Well, daughter came home from school (which I knew of course). But comes in my room and interrupts my nap (that part alone isn't end of world..but probably didn't help 😅). So anyway we talk for a bit and I actually say hey let's have some of this (specific chocolate I wanted). And it turns out she ate ALL of it. Even though it isn't hers. Then, she shows me something and I'm like where did you get that? And she's like I traded (something I got for US).. And this is a reoccurring theme with her. On SOME level, she feels entitled to MY stuff. And as someone with cptsd adhd and narcisstic abuse from her dad, but also just as a HUMAN BEING, I find it disrespectful and honestly shocking that she thinks she can take MY stuff. It makes me feel like I HAVE to be hypervigilant alllll the time. It also cuts into feelings of respect and integrity. So my point is, I went from feeling tired but proud I was taking care of myself with the nap and also reminiscing about how GOOD I felt today on the call, to all of that feeling like it was RIPPED from me. And that makes me feel angry. But the bottom line is, it is a learning lesson. I straight up told her I should not have to be on guard ALL of the time because you decide you are in charge. This entitlement does NOT come from me. It comes from other stuff but mostly her dad. Because he undermines everything I do. So anyway, I think this is a good learning lesson. Because I don't want her thinking this is how you treat friends..that you just take their stuff. What *I* will do differently next time is PROTECT my peace and put a sign on my door that says "taking a nap. Will be available at X time"