I'm and Addict & I'm NOT Sorry 2.0
If youāre reading this, chances are you or someone you love has been through the wringer of addiction. And if thatās the case, you know the worst part isnāt the withdrawals, the broken promises, or those gut-wrenching moments of clarity on the bathroom floor. Itās the shame. Oh, the shame. The kind that soaks into your bones, the kind that makes you believe every awful thing youāve ever heard about yourself. But Iām here to tell you something: fuck the shame. No, really. Fuck it right in the ear. You donāt need that poisonous garbage holding you back anymore. Iām not going to sugarcoat it. Iām an addict. Iāve lied. Iāve stolen. Iāve woken up in strange places with even stranger people. Iāve done the kind of things that shouldāve written me off for good. But you know what? I am still here. I am still a person, no matter what Iāve done. And I deserve to be happy, to love and be loved, to leave something better than I found it. You canāt change your past. That ship has sailed, baby. But you can change your now. And your now is the next decision you make. Is it a step toward the light, or back into the dark? Thatās yours to chooseāevery single day. Two years ago, I wrote those words and people took notice. It was the first time I felt like maybe, just maybe, my story could matter. Since then my world has cracked wide open. I got married. My husband adopted my two kidsālast week, we sat in a courtroom and listened as a judge, in a court of law, told us how amazing we are. Full circle, all the way. I used to stand in front of judges praying for mercy. Now Iām standing there being told I am more than my past. That my family, built out of all this chaos and hope and hard work, is something to be celebrated. I left my safe clinical job. I started my own businessāProgress is Progressābecause I was sick of the one-size-fits-all recovery bullshit. I wanted to be the person I needed when I was clawing my way out. Now I get to do that. Every day, I get to show up for people the way I wish someone had shown up for me.