Just built my Comeback Protocol in Week 3 and finally named the voice in my head: The Verdict. It slams the gavel before the evidence is in. "You're wrong. You're the asshole." Naming it didn't make it bigger. It made it separate from me. I am the one who HEARS The Verdict. I am not The Verdict. That distinction is the work. I refused to give it a name because I don't want to know it. ADHD Harmony did it instead. Today has been a rough day, so I probably should have waited before doing it.

📅 Daily Check-in - May 26, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Anxious about tomorrow. 40 of us in the establishment that I work in need to be proofed for an incident that happened. I know I haven't done anything wrong, but I can just feel myself spiralling up. I just need to calm. This time I've taken a support person, which is good. And it's my son, which is interesting. I've never had him participate in this capacity before. As long as he stops me from over-talking, which it does happen when I get nervous, and just enables me a calming element with his presence. I'm getting really good at this, not feeling it consciously, but just feeling it subconsciously (haha). Will need to use my breath work and tapping which until this moment forgot I had as a tool to see me through ….."

Our (my wife’s) dog died 8:20PM EDT this evening. It was a coincidence about the bone I was panicked about earlier. He had a heart murmur since he was young, and congestive heart failure. The doctor guaranteed it had nothing to do with the ham bone. No mass and no pain when he was examined. An ultrasound was done and his liver was “angry” looking. His liver tests levels were off the charts due to the medicine he was on for his heart. The medicine helped one organ and killed another. Anyways, I needed to take a shower as I was holding him for a while. I came out of the shower and I saw our big dog, his name is Flynn, like this. That hit me hard seeing him appear to be guarding Oslo. Then I went to show my wife the picture in the other room, and apparently my dog, Flynn (in picture) and our dachshund, Lily in another picture with Oslo, had gone over and each gave him a Kiss. Then I see this picture so different now. His big brother is guarding him. It’s sad when we lose a family or friend, but it is different when it’s a pet. They show unconditional love, no matter how you are feeling or whatever mask we are wearing. I don’t post to social media. This is a safe space still, right? Thank you.

Just completed the ADHD Awakening Assessment and finally saw it: I'm not someone who "just quits or fails again." I'm someone whose brain comes alive with fast feedback, green space, animals, and helping someone who needs me. The proof was in my own answers the whole time - I finished two diet modules, my morning routine is already beautiful, and the 200-acre girl who read books in trees is still in there. Time to build the life she's been waiting for.