So I'm working, getting things done but definitely struggling with focusing and not bouncing from one task to the next with no rhyme or reason. All things that do actually need to be done but just not in the proper order of importance. I need to STOP and write myself a list of what I need to get done today..... Well now see, I can do this, I just needed to get it out into the universe so I could think of what to do to help myself..... FIRST I NEED TO Finalize and order business cards.. This is 100% the one MAJOR thing that needs to be done TODAY! I will check back in an hour or so to confirm my progress.. not that I have to but it I put it out then I am more apt to actually do what I say.... send some positive mojo my way!

So eye opening. Thank you Jim for your personal examples bc I see mine so clearly now. I have two main people in my life who question so many of my decisions, seems like all of them, bc they don’t understand my thinking. Wow to the below. Choosing to share the whole thing with you instead of a snippet. DAY 2 As a child, you didn't just play - you produced. "I loved seeing me produce a product of any kind. Whether it was making something or dressing a Barbie. Or being a better ballplayer." Notice what you said next: you didn't feel pressure, you challenged yourself. That's the key. The little girl who created for the pure joy of getting better became "the perfectionist" - but the mask twisted something beautiful. What was once "I loved achieving" quietly became "I can't finish if I don't do it right the first time." The books scattered across your living room for a week aren't a failure of follow-through. They're the evidence of a child who was told her way of seeing things - the girl who got the right math answer but "did it very differently because I saw it differently than everybody else" - wasn't understood. Here's the glimpse of who you are underneath: someone who wants to "take one step without even knowing the end goal, and then take the next step, not caring what other people think." That's not the perfectionist talking. That's the original you, the one who thrived before "my path not being understood" taught you to freeze. And when you traced your held-back confidence straight down to "that little girl in first grade go hide underneath a desk," you found the exact moment the cage door closed.