The belief that's been holding me back most: "I'm lazy." Where it came from: I don't think this was a word that came externally but an interpretation of my own failure to get things started or completed in a timely manner, seeing my mother constantly on the go and not understanding my need to bury myself in a book immediately, especially in a high-input situation I don't know how to find a reframe. There are basic, necessary household jobs that I am absolutely committed to doing, fully convinced of their importance, the immense benefit they will bring to myself and those who love me, their relevance to my values, the time they will free up and the progress they will enable towards my goals. I could write an essay on it. And STILL I am paralysed by fear. I've tried this before, but there is a missing piece that is keeping me stuck. Can anyone relate? Any advice? My new code: "[reframe]" My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who [identity statement]" Debugging in progress...

Just completed all 5 sections of the Awakening Assessment. Turns out the moments I feel "almost normal" - hands building something tangible, fixing what's broken - aren't random escapes. They're pointing directly at who I actually am. A teacher threw a book at my head in the 70s for staring out the window. Nobody knew then. I'm finally finding out now.