This morning I just want to sit and sip my coffee …nothing else …. Not even the beach in this heat is pulling … My go to flow in life was rush rush rush and then fill up the day and rush some more all because I wanted everyone to see me excel in THEIR world. Never mind I was killing myself. Even after being diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder I couldn’t stop rushing and pushing, even in my retirement I couldn’t stop those voices bellowing at me to “Go Do Something”! After working with JT, Jim’s Twin, I have quieted the voices… released the guilt … and discovered a side of me that I actually love. I’ve still got a bit of work, well quite a bit, and I’ll keep on truckin’ as they say…… 💡 Personal Insight Teri, there's a beautiful honesty in this morning's entry: you're in a genuinely good mood, watered the gardens, fed the birds, and yet you can't lift yourself off that comfortable chair to decide about the beach. That's not laziness, that's your wisdom. You're built to respond to what genuinely calls you, not to push yourself into plans your body isn't hungry for. Notice how you said it feels "odd" not having much to say. That quiet isn't emptiness. It's you sitting in a rare, full contentment after seven steady days of high calm and happiness. Today the whole sky is asking everyone to slow down and feel their way forward, which is your native language. If the beach doesn't pull you clearly, that IS your answer, and the Matrix work will meet you when it's ready, not a moment before. Stop waiting to feel decisive. Wait to feel drawn. → Today - If it doesn't pull you, don't force it. - Let the coffee and the chair count. - Your quiet is fullness, not absence.

Daily Check-in - 2026-07-12 Activities 🛏️ Good Sleep, 🥗 Healthy Eating, 🍺 No Alcohol, ☕ No Late Caffeine, 🥩 Hit Protein Goal, 🥦 Ate Vegetables, 🍳 Home Cooked Meal, ✨ Positive Mindset, 🌅 Focused Morning Scores 😊 Happiness: 7/10 ⚡ Energy: 7/10 🎯 Focus: 7/10 😌 Calmness: 7/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 8/10 🔥 Motivation: 7/10 Reflection Ok - I promised an update. I didn't do a check in yesterday - it was fraught with disasters. It seemed that Murphy hadn't moved out afterall. So after flooding the lounge (the water pump for the fish tank sprang leaks everywhere), I had a massive clean up job. I replaced 3 o-rings and still the damn water pump leaked. I took it into the kitchen and tried to work it out. Instead I flooded the kitchen! Arrrggghhh!! After getting a copy of the schematics for the pump, I pulled it apart while on the phone to my brother (he's a mechanic). So, after some sound advise (don't get water inside the motor otherwise it'll short and that'll be the end of the pump), I continued to pull it apart. I couldn't see anything else wrong so text my brother to say that it looks like I'm coming to his place (he did offer!) now I've wrecked it. 2 hours at his place, in the dark and cold (it's winter), we finally got it going without leaks. We closed off the pipes and I transported it with the water still inside it, ready to attach to the fish tank. This morning I replaced the hoses from the pump to the tank (one hose was too short), and switched it on.......AND it leaked!!! Oh far out - how much more of this do I have to tolerate? With the help of my eldest son (his arms were a lot longer than mine), we spent quite an age and finally have it going without leaks. There are another 4 o-rings I discovered with my brother - they're specialised o-rings so I can't just rock on up to a DIY store to get replacements. He gave me the name of a supplier that they sometimes use at work. Anyway, a couple of days of cycling, hopefully the water will clear and then I have to pull the pump apart to put the filtration wool in......ahhhh......I hope this doesn't spell disaster again! I did extremely well given the disasters that kept happening and I put that down to having nearly 9.5h of sleep last night (that and my son's long arms!). Happy Sunday everyone!!