Totally frustrated · ADHD Harmony™

Elliott N

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Totally frustrated

@Admin

I'm going to totally vent because that's what "participation" is asking for and I decided this year was going to be different. It's time for a change so I decided I was going to power myself into playing full out here in the hopes that the course is "different". Like me.

So this post is not just for admin but for anyone, even one person, who thinks like me, processes information like me, is having the same experience as me. Just one person, because so far I feel like I don't fit. Granted it's only day 1 but this is the journey and I really made an effort to commit which is super hard because neurodivergence, focus, procrastination, priorities, overwhelm, frustration are all a problem. That's why I'm here.

First, hoping there is an Admin on ET time who can help with a tech issue with the AI. I followed the instructions and texted Jim but it's obviously too late in Europe.

I finished the video part of Day 1 but can't continue because although I signed up a few days ago, I didn't get the AI link (but am getting the community emails). I entered my email again today now that I understand the 5 days but still no AI link. I hope I don't have to wait until Day 2 and then have a backlog of stuff to do. Exactly why I'm not here. My list is already long enough and overwhelm is already present. Now feeling super overwhelmed and anxious. If I don't "check" the boxes in day 1, I can't even unlock day 2.

ADMIN. Is there a direct link to the AI you can send me please?

Second, I'm just going to vent. Strangely after watching the day 1 video, I have to say been there done that. I've done Joe Dispenza/LOA/NLP Coaching/energy spirit stuff/etc, which is the process I saw today, plus Wim Hof and a bunch of other breathing protocols, plus followed Gabor Mate, Jim Kwik's 1% rule (which he actually took from someone else). Bruce Lipton's Biology of Belief and epigenetics is classic. Neuroplasticity, yes.

So many dozens maybe hundreds of courses. I absorb information at an enormous rate but if I can't close the 400 tabs on my desk top, how can I read 50 books? How does anyone who can't focus read 50 books? I may have 100 unfinished books on my bookshelf plus hundreds more waiting.

What I end up doing is going to watch a video, read articles, make tons of notes in courses, etc. Small bites/Atomic habits/break things into smaller steps until the overwhelm isn't there. Yes, done that. Temporary solutions.

How do you start a business with so many details, decisions, balls in the air and function? I'm impressed with a person who can do that. Action is an integral part of LOA (law of attraction) and coaching models. It's only taught badly by most teachers but it's there. It's not that I'm totally frozen. It's the type and priority and focus on the action without distraction and getting in done 100%, not half way, not super multi tasking. feeling some peace and sense of accomplishment without the voices saying that was done badly. How do I fix a bad sense of organization and create structure with so much universe in my head?

Application (action) is the issue without procrastination and overwhelm. I look forward to how the next 4 days goes once I get past the Day 1 stuff when I can access the AI, etc. Maybe I don't fit here. I don't have a bunch of 20 minute tasks. I have a to-do list of a hundred small, medium and large to do's none of which can be done in 20 minutes. Pieces of them maybe which require the small bites/atomic habits approach for sure. I'll do my best and see how this goes.

Am I totally alone in my way of thinking? This is my brain and my life. I'm not young. This has always been me and only in recent years did I figure out there was nothing wrong me, I was just different. Is there anyone else like me? I don't mean support me, although I'm totally grateful for connection. I mean like me?

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