Anyone has suggestions on how to deal with regret? Past things i did, recently but also from distant time.

I think I’ve been in a dark night since November. The last couple years were intense spiritually — Grandmother Ayahuasca, Bufo, kambo, Dr. Iboga, leaving my career, breaking my lease, selling everything, and doing a solo cross-country pilgrimage camping from New Orleans to Mount Shasta and back to New Hampshire. My soul was loudly directing all of this - I was just the vehicle. Now I’m at my mom’s house isolated in deep winter. My inspiration snuffed out, my soul has gone dead silent. It’s not exactly depression. It’s more like I don’t see the point in anything anymore, & feel a deep refusal to participate in a 9-5 ever again. Everything’s grey and empty. I even wonder sometimes if I imagined it all. Right now my plan is to spend the summer camping near the White Mountains and letting my nervous system reset. I’m curious if anyone here has gone through a phase like this after deep spiritual work — where the guidance disappears and you’re left in a strange silent in-between. That liminal void of painful nothing. The pup I rescued on the pilgrimage is my silver lining, my bright light. 🐾