I am having a lot of confusion on my spiritual path I’ve gotten to the point where I have learned that I have to choose one path to take ,but what would that path be and would I still need to grow if I’m still having these thought’s?

The Meditation number one made my day. I was there, just like that, in the eternal, in the stars. Closed eyes, breath, sounds of silence, voice. Nine minutes were like three. I am going to sleep, good night!

You might not understand it right away, but this is the purpose of all the meditations and the things we are going through. The ultimate truth. The “new world”. Now you might not know what the new world is, let me tell you. The world you are living in is real. But the world that you perceive is dependent on what your mind makes out of it. Any situation that happens, is mixed with your emotions and feelings. They trigger a sensation, which causes more feelings and emotions to arise. It is a loop. The new world is that you notice all situation from a back seat and not let them affect you, this is very difficult. So we use meditation to observe our thoughts. We use positive thinking and affirmations to change the outcome of a situation. Sensations are our subconscious, dreams are our subconscious, visions are our subconscious. Everything that arises in your body without your conscious will is your subconscious. The new world is working on that and once you realise this, you’re enlightened. Enlightenment is processing a situation without letting the subconscious meddle in the process.

I'm not sure what I am doing. I explore theories and concepts that interest me but I rarely find anything that resounds in my soul. I do find bits and pieces of theology that seem true and I use them to piece together a belief that is my Truth. That's what I have been doing for the past few years. I am open to suggestions about how to further and enrich my experience. I believe that when the student is ready, the teacher will come. I would love to think that I am ready. But so far I have kept my journey to myself. I hope that those who feel led to advise me, present themselves. I am asking for guidance. Blessed Be 🤙

I am realizing a lot about myself right now. I feel I need to focus on myself, care for myself and lend my energy to myself…. not to go get attention or be gluttonous but to do intentional loving, gentle care for myself that I enjoy. I feel I am disconnected from my being or my wellness and become enmeshed in my boyfriends or certain other people’s. Like I feel for others, but only really pay attention to my feelings more when it interferes with me connecting with others feelings. I am not sure if that makes sense. Actually taking time to “recharge” or find balance… like where I care for myself and tend to myself enough where naturally I step into the world in a more balanced caring way for others AND for myself. I wonder if I put the same energy into me that I put into others, if that may naturally help me find more balance in my relationships. I am not sure how to really provide care and also have appropriate boundaries FOR myself and FOR others. I feel like I wasn’t taught appropriate emotional or even physical boundaries as an adolescent. I was thinking about “self preservation while also having selfless moments” something like that. Learning to trust my intuition is new for me and I have lately tended to obsess or be a perfectionist at times. I feel exhausted by the way I am experiencing the world. I am not sure if you guys have any perspective on what it is like to care for yourself or enjoy yourself or be kind to yourself. Anything you have to share about what it’s like or what is healthy to you would be so valuable to me right now.