I am at a point where I am realizing more about how my mind is… the patterns, the views, the beliefs, the contradictions. Sometimes I just feel like I don’t even have an identity because I question everything and feel so disconnected from others or the status quo. I struggle to just BE and as I exist now, am just overwhelmed by constant analysis, investigation, contradiction, endless loopholes, occasional awakening but often impending dread that the thoughts and loopholes with be back soon to have a chat… I feel really tired and don’t know… I feel like screaming right now, just what the fuck.

Here we are again… lol… I keep finding myself here… I would like to know other people’s view on the ego, if it is useful or helpful, where does it become a problem or whatever else feels significant to express about this topic. I just started to explore different beliefs on the ego, self and just read on Freud. I guess I am curious to explore more about this since my awareness has grown of my own thoughts - I am experiencing not taking on the identity of my beliefs or thought but rather observing them and wondering if things could be integrated in a way that is healthy and skillful.

Hello my is Joe new here as well,these videos have helped a lot

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I have my views about free will, not sure if it exists or doesn’t, I appreciate awareness, perspective and how everything seems to be so important to itself. I was talking with someone yesterday about how my “spirit” decides (in the case that it can anyway). The person understands that my spirit and others can have tendencies that are not always so gentle… they said “that’s not good” (to mine deciding) …. we were in an argument about our relationship to be fair. I mentioned how they told me before how their spirit is like water and oil, a mix of clarity and some other possibly more selfish or conditioned qualities/attributes. I said how when I act from my spirit, given the culmination of my wisdom or skills/fears/intentions - that I simply act the best that I can in any given moment. One of the videos on here, I forget the name, is a guy engaged in what seems like guided meditation where I came to connect with what felt like my core of innocence or joy. I’m interested to know what others have found is their spirit or if they believe there is something deeper within that is purer than even that state or a way to access the purer state directly without having to have the “water and oil” effect. Shower thoughts :)