hello my brothers! apologies for not being super active or saying much lately. i know i havenāt been posting or saying much on other posts. itās been a rough few weeks for me, and iām trying to recover. a bit of a life update, i got insanely sick and could barely leave bed for 3 days. i couldnāt sleep, had to force myself to eat and drink, and got REALLY delirious too. i fell down the stairs twice and according to my mom i was rambling about wanting to drink a bottle of Davidoff Cool Water š¬ on top of that, when i was in recovery process, my friend started to have a really hard time. heās one of my best friends, and he lives on the opposite side of the world from me, so i canāt do as much for him as i want to. either way, i tried and helped him through it as much as possible. for 3 terrifying days, i was convinced it wasnāt enough, and id lost him too. looking back at it now, i realized i was tremendously overthinking it, but being extremely dehydrated, tired, barely being able to eat, and recovering from nasty sickness, not to mention already grieving, itās not a good combination lol. but hey, what a blessing it is to have people in your life worth eating your nails off for. needless to say, after a long time of silence, i was EXTREMELY relieved to learn that heās okay, healing nicely, and weāre back to talking as much as we can now. iām so grateful heās okay, because honestly, he means so much to me. heās my friend, my loved one, a true brother to me. iād do anything for him. either way, iām very very very tired. still recovering from being sick, but im able to start eating again, and minus getting into coughing fits that make me almost throw up every time⦠im healing nicely, Christmas had its ups and downs. i really tried to enjoy myself as much as possible, remembering my blessings, but Christmas is always a bittersweet day for me. i got some super awesome gifts like a perfuming kit and a lego set iāve wanted for soooo long, so thatās awesome! and my family loves the gifts i got for them too.