📅 Daily Check-in - July 9, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Well today I'm feeling really exhausted. I took my husband to A&E last night because some skin that he accidentally tore off, was showing signs of complete breakdown. Diagnosis was cellulitis which was what I thought it was. Got home just after 10pm. This morning, we had an argument. Then watching the live stream on tv of our son playing football in Christchurch, my husband had another go at me. I left the room so angry that I was shaking. I kept myself shut away and finally managed to get the game to stream on my laptop. Just long enough to see our son take a 50/50 challenge for the ball (he's our Goalkeeper) and although he gets the ball out, He doesn't get back up on this feet. There's nothing worse than watching something like that unfold right before your eyes and that feeling of helplessness. He was taken off the field, unable to weight bear at the time. Looks like he's out of the tournament. He did text me when he got into the van. I said all the right things without showing any signs of panic. Finished our correspondence with him feeling better when I suddenly realised that I needed to get our other son to the doctors to have the cast taken off and his arm re-xrayed. I quickly relayed the info to my husband and left. Unbenounced to to me, while I was out, he was over-riding me and texting him directly. He then had the nerve to relay it all back to me. I honestly couldn't believe it. He was in good hands with the coaches and the managers, we had a plan where the manager would check in on him at lunchtime and if required would take him to the first aid tent when they went for the next game. Why did he bother? I felt like my authority was undermined. So my day has finished with me feeling frustrated that this is the way that it has to go. At least on the plus side, my youngest is out of a cast although there's a query over a possible chunk of bone taken out. But he's out and he's happy. I shouted him a smoothie afterwards as he had been so patient. Anyway, evening is starting to move in and tomorrow is a stat holiday (Matariki weekend) and I have animals to go out and take care of in the rain. Happy Thursday everyone! Venting is over!"

📅 Daily Check-in - July 8, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Well this day has been fraught with so many things that can and did go wrong today. I overdosed the dog on his morning meds > phoned vet > everything ok but can't give him his evening meds. Why did this happen? A breakdown in communication - not a breakdown with me specifically although given the day I've had, it's hard to not blame myself. I am unable to watch my eldest son's football games live > I can't stream anything about his game both in the App and in YT > no help from someone despite me helping earlier in the day on this exact subject. Child Health Services Mental Health Unit phoned and told me that they DON'T recognise PDA/EBSA as a diagnosis in children. Since when was PDA/EBSA not recognised as a diagnosis? So I've had to restructure the phone call on the fly taking this new information on board. I'm hoping to hear back from them next week. In the meantime, the school is expecting a response from me by the end of the week. Oh and don't forget I've still got the Attendance Officers calling me (read Truancy Officers). So the ball is back in the Mental Health Unit's court to figure out a workable plan where I'm going to be happy supporting my son through it. Oh and I tried the new worksheet twice "The Bridge". Both times the satellite connection dropped out due to atmospheric conditions so I lost everything, twice. I closed it and walked away - it sums my day up beautifully. Never mind - tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a positive one at that." 📊 Wellbeing Scores: 😊 Happiness: 4/10 ⚡ Energy: 4/10 🎯 Focus: 4/10 😌 Calmness: 4/10 🌙 Sleep Quality: 3/10 🔥 Motivation: 4/10 ⭐ Average: 3.8/10 ✅ Activities from yesterday: 💧 Stayed Hydrated 🥗 Healthy Eating 🍺 No Alcohol 🥩 Hit Protein Goal 🎸 Skill Practice 🤝 Helped Someone 👂 Active Listening