Admitting my dating issues · Men of Action Forum

Admitting my dating issues

I am new here thanks for the add btw. I’m 33, have not had a date in 10 years, I have not had a girlfriend since high school, which just so happens to be my first and only relationship. I have only had 2 dates in my entire life. I fight depression, nihilism, anxiety, shame, and addiction because of it. Iv made all the mistakes, web cam model addiction, had to lose my virginity to an escort at 24, continued to use escorts for 6 years, no more friendzone I no longer have any female friends outside of my friends wives and girlfriends, I work from home as an IT support admin so I am not in an office. I’v been trying to fix my life in this area, but I cannot do so by myself, I asked for help, when I received indifference, was laughed at, and was ignored, I took it as a sign my friends were not my friends, instead of helping, people just said “sorry bud wish we could help” So I left my friends of 15 plus years , they were shocked, I have changed jobs to earn more, went from 386 down to 220, I’m healthy (minus being a diabetic which I keep to myself) I quit drinking, I hit that gym 3-4 times a week. Walk every morning, I genuinely thought I would at least be in a relationship by now, or married, but instead I am by myself. I am open to any suggestions to improve. I thought I’d be a good dad, I was wrong. I can’t even get laid, how can I be? I am again, open to fixing myself, I don’t know where to start.

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