We clean our homes but do we clear internal things that keep us weaker and stuck?
Growing up, fitness for me meant a certain look. Thin. Toned. Strength wasn’t the goal. External approval was. In my late teens, immaturity mixed with a need for control turned into an eating disorder. In my twenties, when I found weight lifting, I built muscle quickly and took the “manly” comments as criticism. Instead of feeling proud, I learned to make my strength smaller so I wouldn’t draw attention. I lost out on a lot of joy that way. After kids, I came back to lifting purely for aesthetics. I got leaner. Stronger. I hit what many people call the goal. Around 20 percent body fat, perkier glutes, visible abs. And I was still unsettled. That’s when I realized the stress I was carrying was a learned pattern. Years of overthinking and trying to control outcomes had been grinding me down. Perimenopause, shifting hormones, and poor sleep made it impossible to ignore that something deeper was off. Many women tie their sense of worth to performance. They believe they have to earn rest, confidence, or self improvement by doing more for others first. That belief is what keeps them stuck in cycles of starting and stopping. When I started working on nervous system regulation, learning how to move between stress and recovery more intentionally (therapy, introspection, meditation/prayer, etc), things began to change. My lower back pain eased. My sleep slowly improved. Eating well and exercising stopped feeling like chores and started feeling like a privilege. Weight loss, strength, and feeling better in your body are solid goals. Goals that last when the stress patterns underneath are addressed. Just like we clean our homes, offices, and cars, it can help to clear out outdated stress responses and beliefs too. What are you in a season of cleaning right now? Let me know if this resonates!💪🏽❤️