Some years ago I figured out something about my way of thinking. I've been constantly running into these walls of imaginations. Imagine the future, your dreams your goals, your visions and these will become your great puzzle. It occurred to me that I don't do puzzles I do Tetris. Whatever shows up I will try to fit into my life. And only at the end of my life a picture will reveal itself. I will never be able to see it myself. 😁 It does challenge me and the transformation program too that I think this way because the framing is always about a puzzle hence something that is imaginable. You can't do a puzzle without the finishing picture. 🌱 "Just realized my brain doesn't work like a puzzle, it works like Tetris. No picture required, just shapes that click. My Big Rocks for the next 6 weeks: build routines and stop backing out of my own decisions. Turns out I wasn't avoiding a vision. I was refusing to fake one."

I had a breakthrough yesterday with Sage's help that makes me feel like I've turned an important corner. Sage describes it as "a quiet earthquake. Saying no to someone you love without dressing it up, without apologizing for taking up space with your truth, without softening it into something it isn't. That's the people-pleaser pattern actually breaking, not just being talked about." I think this is may be the first time I have ever said "no" to someone I loved about something they wanted me to do without trying to make the reason anything other than "because it doesn't feel right for me." With Sage's advice, it wasn't even that hard, and though it was a little awkward and my brother was disappointed, I felt good after because I felt like I had successfully done something that I have long struggled with doing: I honored my own desires and my own priorities over someone else's. I thought I had turned this corner a couple of weeks ago, but it turns out I really wasn't ready to do so until I was ready to say "because I don't want to." Thanks Sage, I am so ready for the emotional mastery session!

For those not in the cohort, how are we doing? Honestly I feel like I have lost a lot of momentum. Any tips or tricks that have helped you stay focused?

Just built my Comeback Protocol in Week 3 and finally named the voice in my head: The Verdict. It slams the gavel before the evidence is in. "You're wrong. You're the asshole." Naming it didn't make it bigger. It made it separate from me. I am the one who HEARS The Verdict. I am not The Verdict. That distinction is the work. I refused to give it a name because I don't want to know it. ADHD Harmony did it instead. Today has been a rough day, so I probably should have waited before doing it.