While figuring out if the adhd label fits, I also feel the time overwhelm. Like, how is it even possible the challenge is allready on day 4 but my head and time and mind space can’t get beyond day 1 (yet). It’s like I”m always behind, every day (not even in the challenge but at work, organisation at home) How do other people handle that? Zooming out? Getting an overview on things?

Sarah ( I can't remember your last name now 🙈 lol). @Sarah Kristensen I just found a post by you about this that this is for, so edited my post with you now tagged in it properly 😆 lol! Regarding the struggle with questions. You asked me what ones I read to help me answers mine. I'm behind so I am able to read the ones people have written for the correct days that I am catching up with. For me, I always struggle to start without some guidance/examples. It's like my mind is blank and needs a jump start to get going. It's all in there, but until I have seen examples, I struggle to visualise it and get it out. Really frustrating! I hope that helps! Wait for some to have shared there learnings and then try again. Or if you can ask someone that's with you for an example, it might help jump start your brain to get going.

Old belief. 'You never learn, you will never get better, no matter how hard you try, you keep proving to yourself that you can't do it, why don't you learn?' 'Things will never get better, you are stupid and unlovable, you're not relationship material and always mess up, no one will ever want to stay with you once they get to know you and they will all leave eventually. Why do you keep putting yourself through the inevitable, when you know this always happens. You're a burden, a pain, a nightmare, no good, you can't look after yourself let alone anyone else, it's no wonder they leave.' Where it came from. Very critical mother, teachers, bullies. New belief. 'I am strong, clever, intelligent, funny, honest, kind and caring', 'I work hard and am passionate and that makes what I do great', 'I love with all my heart and people appreciate me and all I do for them and love me so much back', 'I am a good loyal partner and anyone would be lucky to have me for all I do for them', 'I can do most things I put my hand to and a lot more than most and am proud of it'. My future statement. I would be happy whether I was in a relationship or not, content in my own company. I would feel confident and have my own crafts business up and running and doing well. My energy would be good and no longer constantly drained from the endless overthinking and worrying. I would be proud of myself and have a routine that worked for me not others. I would put my needs before others and not worry about what they think. My social life would be alive again and I'd enjoy being able to go out and have fun from time to time and not feel guilty for having me time and know I deserve it and be ok with that.

What is the belief that's been holding me back most? Now, I have even caught up with the AI questions for both day 3 and 4, but I still get stuck on this "mini task" for day 3... I really don't feel like I can answer this question, or that it is old beliefs that are holding me back 🤨 It feels like mainly lack of motivation, metal energy, and drive - such things. Not like "I am not capable of doing this, because I am just useless" or something else like that. Anyone else, who have had trouble with this part of the challenge??

The Mask(s) I live with. Several masks that help me get by but are also unhelpful to my health, perfectionist, people pleaser, class clown, invisible one. I put everyone before myself, I only feel good if I'm being shown appreciation which I rarely get so I rarely feel good about myself. I only feel like I'm interesting if I am making innuendos and making people laugh, but I often end up oversharing and giving guys the wrong idea and have them hit on me when I'm not actually interested, it makes me feel unsafe, uncomfortable and then horrible that I have to turn them down. I often get nasty reactions in retaliation no matter how nice I am about it. Being a perfectionist, I often want to replace things that get the slightest bit of damage, never feel happy with what I have, never want help as it's never good enough for my standards that are too high even for myself, or if I do have help, I end up redoing it myself later so I end up overdoing it leading to more burnout and then guilt and feelings of ungratefulness coz I can't just be happy with what has been done for me. People get frustrated with me and think I'm ungrateful and then I feel awful and guilt ridden, I overthink and just want to hide and not be around anyone. I have lost lots of friends and become mostly a recluse and feel very lonely. How exhausting it is. I am that burnout and for so long that it's been 13 years since I was able to work. Even thinking about what I used to be able to makes me feel tired and literally cringe with the sensation that goes through my mind and body. I'm also an empath so when others talk of how much they've done and how tired they are, I feel even more exhausted. My brain feels constantly inflamed and ready to explode like there's just so much in there overwhelming and overstimulating me. Childhood loves. I loved building little Lego towns, building houses out of boxes and sheets, playing with my Sylvanian families and barbie dolls, building things for my hamster to play on/with. I loved drawing cartoons and people and making things with crafts. I also loved to go out and play with my friends and making them laugh, roller skating, cycling, at the park on swings and slides etc, swimming and playing in puddles getting dirty and climbing trees.