@Cathy A Castagna I guess abilify is new compared to lithium and lamictal 😂

@April Robinson wow! That's weird, for me the thought of dying, specifically having that option as an out, was always comforting to me, fortunately, even at my most hopeless I never reached a point where that looked like the best option. I guess that was suicidal ideology in a way but not in the sense of "I want to do it" just as a potential escape route if things ever got so bad I couldn't deal with it anymore, I found the thought comforting, enough so that it actually made me feel less hopeless. Thanks for sharing your experience with abilify, I'd already decided I'm not interested in trying any more meds right now, I think I might try emdr and will give the meds I'm on more time to see where I get with them, but I don't see the point of keep adding more drugs to the mix, one set of crutches should be enough for now 😁

Thanks for sharing, it Looks interesting but if I have to give my phone number and accept marketing calls it's a pass for me. I already figured out that the health care system was nothing but a big money making con anyway, in this country at least, it's all about pushing drugs and drug companies don't create cures, they don't want people to be healthy, they want customers for life. That alone tells you everything you need to know about the system. 😞

Oh I have missed so many appointments, forgotten to pick people up at airports and stood people up on so many occasions. And I know that horrible feeling of guilt, you tell yourself what a terrible person you are and you feel it in your gut and you shrink and contract, and it just won't go away. Trust me, we all know what that's like, even if the actual feeling is a little different, but I promise you, you are not a terrible person and the people who love you don't think you are. If they don't already understand your challenges, maybe explain it to them. I would also recommend getting a good reminder app, on your phone, with a loud notification tone. Set several reminders well in advance, to keep reminding yourself there's something coming up and one that that repeats every 5 minutes until you turn it off if it's something you really have to remember. Of course it's not perfect, if your phone doesn't work or your battery is dead or you leave it in another room or forget to turn do not disturb off when you get up on the morning (which I often do 😁) but it has helped me a lot and ADHD Harmony is helping me to change my thinking and self judgment about the things I do forget, so you are in the right place. Be kind to yourself ❤️ Would you ever punish anyone else for forgetting something the way you punish yourself? I bet you wouldn't

@Linda Trup I can relate too, that invisibility mask is one I've worn all my life, it feels safer to just not be seen, so we make ourselves as small as possible, unfortunately, we also start to believe we are small and insignificant and inferior. As a kid I would get into trouble and have absolutely no idea what I had done wrong so I learned to avoid and to try not to even be noticed. The early dementia comment makes me wonder if you are experiencing perimenopause, one thing that is not commonly talked about is how menopause ramps up the effects of ADHD, there are many many women in this group who were late diagnosed, often because we managed to cope and mask and just go through life feeling inferior and exhausted because we had no idea we were ADHD until the hormone levels drop and the coping and the masks just don't work anymore. You are in the right place here, it's very supportive and the blueprint and the 5 day challenge are amazing resources. ❤️

@Sarah Peetermans I use these sometimes... They are just cheap ear plugs that I bought at a supermarket years ago so I can't tell you exactly what they are but you can find similar easily. I like the string on them so I can just hang it round my neck, if I push them all the way in they cut everything out, not exactly noise cancelling but good enough, or I can just have them half way in if it's too loud, and I can still hear without it being painful or overwhelming, I use them that way at movies, which are always too loud, and I can pull them out easily if there's quiet dialog.