So me and this girl were friends for like maybe 5 months , and I was okay with her behavior and everything nothing too aggressive even though one time she judged my beliefs but I've let that slide . Then until last week , I was sitting with her in the school yard I'd say , and a classmate of ours was with us we were talking , and the girl completely changed a behavior in front of him which I've noticed before but I never knew it was the pick me behavior . I thought she was like that . Anyways , she was wearing a jacket , she took it off then she wore it again and she stood up then she sit right again . She literally disturbed me but I didn't say anything cuz it didn't trigger me that much , then in a moment she made really uncomfortable when I said hold on I wanna find an empty classroom so I can record some covers for Instagram , I went to search and she turned around telling him oh look she has the walk of Michael Jackson , she's literally jealous of my model-like walk I suppose . Then I returned and I said , there's no empty classrooms , she said oh here's the restroom go and record there .... That was nasty , but yeah . Then I said no I won't and the guy said you want spirits to possess her or what ? I said I don't believe in spirits she said oh I can smell a Jewish person here .... How can you say that ?? And she followed by : oh don't tell me that I'm dealing with atheists right now , wait do you believe in God ? I said yes for the sake of ending her conversation because she's way too religious and that's not my thing . She labeled me atheist just because I said I don't believe in spirits not God lol. Afterwards , she started to give me weird stares , then she was speaking in English and she messed up a sentence so I hurried up to correct her which I normally do and she doesn't take it to heart , she literally said oh stfu stared at me and continued what she was saying to that guy . I literally didn't talk much to her that afternoon and then I messaged her on telegram saying girl you violated a boundary of mine saying that she said I was joking can't you get it !!? I can't believe that you thought of me like that .

On my way to start the year 2026 sober ! From an addiction of mine that started when I was 16 .

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Here are some things that I achieved this year ( without really planning on achieving them ) 1- I transformed my voice from flat to textured and I learned how to support it and add colors ) 2- I learned how to draw without copying and sketching from a laptop 3- I prioritized my hobbies 4- I became so self-aware and I understood so much about spirituality 5- I've quit a spiritual system that I was in for as long as I remember 6- I digged into ROCK and Metal music ( it was the best part ) 7- I've written a lot of songs about different topics and different perspectives 8- I passed my second year of college 9- I became aware of my mental health and the way my mind is differently wired 10- I approached creativity as a way of life not as a hobbie anymore 11- I've learn to treat people with kindness and no judgment , and distance myself when needed . 12- I've learned how to sing on beat

Hi, So I am struggling very heavily with discipline right now as I have so much on my plate right now, with finals coming up for me and trying to do everything that I can to finish, but I am struggling to find my groove and to find motivation to execute. Ultimately, I feel like I’ve lost my faith in the Lord and I’ve lost my identity. With how this semester has gone, it has left me in a bad spot, and this has pretty much been what college as a whole has been for me, as I am really struggling to grow into the man that God has made me to be. Therefore, I am in dire need of your prayers and support for me at this time as I need them and the accountability that I need more than ever. I know that God has a great plan for me and I know I will be able to find my purpose and identity once I run back to God and surrender to His will. So please pray for me at this time to renew my relationship with the Lord and that I refocus onto Him and everything He has in store for my future. Thank you and God Bless you all🙏🏻💗