I haven’t been happy for one minute in my entire life. I push everyone away because they don’t deserve to be miserable like me. I am such an abortion. It’s insane how not a day goes by when I wish I hadn’t been born. All my teachers and bullies and antagonizers were right all along. I was never a good person. I totally overestimated my ability to believe the BS that I could be worth a damn in this beautiful world. Everyone has had enough of my nonsense, including myself. Happy new year.

As today is Tuesday the 6th, my mission is set clear, and that is to utilize this week to be in a better spot mentally and to build on with the healthy habits that I’ve been doing for a strong start to the upcoming semester and a great 2026 as a whole. Therefore, I shall continue to pray and meditate on the Word to have a deeper relationship with God, and I shall continue with my fasting protocol and do my fitness and nutrition protocol as well (5-6 days in the gym + Portioned out meals, consisting mainly protein and vegetables). Then, I shall strive to get 8-9 hours of sleep each night to keep the healthy and productive cycle going. I have been more than a week free from lust, and more than three weeks on retention, so I have been having that streak going and avoiding temptation. The main thing is that when a situation gets difficult, I shall be sure to recognize those more often and ask St. Michael the Archangel to deliver me from that intense situation and find my way back to God. I know that God sent St. Michael to assist me in this battle for these very reasons, and I got great help from him to rise up in battle and rebuke all evil and wickedness and find my way back to God. I thank St. Michael for assisting me in these times, and most importantly, I thank Jesus for sending him as an assist to help me find my way back to You and to follow You more closely on Your path throughout this journey. Another impactful activity I have been doing is diving deep into the book of Job. Reading Job’s story of his struggles and how he dealt with adversity by remaining with God through the difficult times is influential on our journeys because it is very similar to what we deal with on a daily basis. The most impactful verses I’ve come across thus far are Job 5:17-18 saying: ““Blessed is the person whom God corrects. That person should not despise discipline from the Almighty. God injures, but he bandages. He beats you up, but his hands make you well.” These have touched me the most because it is living proof that God loves us and is with us every step of the way, and He makes go through difficult trials because it is the only way that He can change us to improve on a daily basis, and the purpose of suffering is to change and grow as people and to find our way to living out our God-given purpose.

How are you guys doing ? It's been a minute What are your goals for January and how are you working towards achieving them ? Also , I've got a at home job recently so I'm so happy and I wanted to share it with y'all :) Planning on getting an electric guitar by June if everything goes well til then . And I'm studying for the finals of the 1st semester.

As we are on the final day of 2025, it was certainly a difficult year and I faced a lot of adversity, but it was all worth it because it was essential for my growth as a man of God and I was able to accomplish a lot of things this year. That’s why this year was a great one. As we are about to begin 2026, I don’t necessarily have quote-on-quote New Year’s resolutions/goals, because I do not want to jinx myself and burn out and mess up. At this point, I shall continue to focus on weekly goals and strive to achieve those every week so that I can make it reasonable and stay consistent and steadfast. The weekly goals I have now and the ones I will continue to have throughout each week will be essential for this year as a whole, so I shall continue to take it one day/week at a time to remain consistent. These goals are to: • Strengthen my relationship with God through constant prayer and deeper meditation on His word • Work out hard in the gym 5-6 days a week • Eat a healthy diet, consuming in reasonable portions for every meal • Work hard in college/work for success and advancements • Improve relationships with people that will support you with goals, including my brothers in Christ in here • Consume valuable entertainment that will aid in personal, spiritual, and career growth (reading, sports documentaries, finding my purpose, etc.) • Get proper rest at each night to ensure consistency and motivation Many of these good habits I have incorporated, and I shall continue to incorporate them one by one as time goes on. Especially since I had gotten into the book of Job, I am already experiencing the impact of the book, relating to His story and to know that I shall remain faithful in the Lord, no matter how difficult the road gets. Doing this will help me power through and to achieve success in anything I set out to do, and all this is possible with God. Especially since the enemy is tempting me to get off track and going in the wrong direction, I must make sure to remain steadfast and not allow myself to get distracted and give into temptation.

Happy Monday to you all! As we begin this new week and as we inch closer to the new year, it is time to dedicate my time to growing into the man of God that He made me to be. I will do this by really denying myself and become more obedient towards Christ. So I shall engage in activities that will challenge me to another level, to break out of my comfort zone and to really grow closer to God. From Proverbs 1:7 - “Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, fools despise wisdom and discipline” Abiding by this verse will get me to focus on becoming obedient towards Christ and to lock in and do whatever He wants me to do. That’s why along with devotion to prayer and meditation on the word, and my fitness and nutrition protocol, I shall do further discovery into my character from God and to know how to live my purpose every day. With that being said, I shall apply for summer internships in sports and land the best opportunity possible for growth as a man who lives out his purpose. Doing these things will help me to serve God better and doing my part to serve others well will make it so that I do quality work for God and others. Plus, with beginning to study the Book of Job, I know doing this will help me to live a more disciplined and purposeful life that God wants us to live, so I am excited to share verses and the impacts that the Book of Job has on me through every verse and chapter I dive into. Committing my time to doing these activities will allow me to have a fulfilled week and a strong start to 2026, so I shall lock in with these things and to resist any temptations that will bring me away from the path. It’s time to get to work and to become that disciplined man living out his purpose from God! May God Bless you all and have a great week🕊️🙏🏻💗✝️