I was kinda in building mode the last year and today I woke up to this view: (attached below) Yeah it looks beautiful I know, and no, this post won't be about some bullshit of work hard or anything like that. The truth is I was afraid to come to Bali, I was in "monk mode" for so long, and not the 2-8 week sprint type of monk mode, it wasn't even monk mode anymore it was just my life... I consumed so much self-improvement and business content that everything has to be filtered thru the question: is this beneficial? Will this make me better? and when I mean everything I mean EVERYTHING, I was afraid to come to Bali because I knew I had this filter and I wanted to do stuff here that I just love to do and it doesn't necessarily make me "better" I forced myself into this optimizer identity and I lost my creativity, personality and playfulness towards life. ​ But this made me stuck... I stopped having great ideas, that aliveness left me and I even forgot what was the reason I was working for. One day on my YouTube feed some random channel came up about some guy documenting his "monk mode" I was curious about the video and I made a prediction about the guy's personality before clicking: "he will probably lack aliveness, will have that sleepy voice and will talk about his routine" I said to myself and I was 100% spot on, I knew this because practically this is how I lived... but the truth is that after a while it started to have diminishing returns, not even diminishing returns it's just practically got me nowhere. ​(I touched more on this in my new video)​ ​ so I decided to reverse engineer the times when I achieved the most, made the most money, had great connections and was the most fulfilled and I realized that at that time I was just being myself, sharing, consuming and creating stuff that I just enjoyed. I think now I understand what Naval meant by saying "escape competition thru authenticity"

Hey Synthesizers, right now I'm just trying to practice making thumbnails and improve my skills so I could increase my portfolio. I'm not charging for any of the thumbnails, in fact, you don't even need to use the ones I make for you, I just want practice because I'll probably do thumbnails for a few freelance gig's and use them for my own videos. Here's some of my work I've done so far, again, I'm not charging you, and you don't even need to use the thumbnails I make. I just want some practice.

Almost a year ago, I joined synthesizer school. In this community, I’ve had loads of ups and downs where I just was on and off on YouTube being inconsistent with what I said “my purpose” was. Then around 2 months ago, I made a decision. I realized that I needed to stay extremely consistent on one thing for an extreme amount of time if I was going to win. And I learned that after trying 13-16 different business ideas. From selling print on demand to relationship coaching, to now, YouTube with a offer of a course and personal training. And just as the author of the 12 week year “majority of our problems come from not having consistency.” Or something like that, I didn’t read the book I just heard that from Ali Abdaal. At any rate, when I made the decision 2 months that I would stick to YouTube no matter what, that’s when things started changing for me. The content on YouTube I consumed, how I treat my time, the books I read, what I did to re-charge, all of it, was used to direct towards one thing: YouTube. And I’ve been loving it. Yes I’ve had my ups and downs, I won‘t bullshit anyone. If you’re going to do something for a very long time, you won’t be able to stay sharp 100% of the time. But nonetheless, I still come back to YouTube. And after some thinking I realized why I’ve stuck with YouTube now more than ever than anything I’ve ever done. Ever since I was a child, I’m sure a lot of other kids were like this, but I loved watching YouTube. Sometimes to the point where I was extremely obsessed over it. But there was this one YouTuber I used to watch as a kid called “DanTDM.” I’m sure someone here probably knows him. And I remember watching him and saying to myself “I want to be like this guy. I want to be a YouTuber.” And that thought has always stuck with me. I’ve always wanted to be a YouTuber when I was a kid. That literally means, the more I do YouTube, the more I’m working towards my childhood dream. And most people who end up able to follow their childhood dream, are 1. More happy in the long run. And 2.(imo) much more fulfilled.

Hey bro, currently im struggling to grow my youtube channel. I have uploaded few videos but didn't even got clicks. I have seen many creator popping off with raw content but when i upload it, it never grow. Even with thumbnails and editing, i don't get views not even 1 view. I need some guidance on script, titles and thumbnail to enhance my videos, that'll have more chance to grow. I did try to search for courses and YouTube videos to watch(free) but couldn't find one and now I'm feelint stucked at a place cause none of the ideas are hitting me for videos. I'll be very grateful for your advice if you have been throughout of this loop. Trust me bro I really need a advice on this about growing my Youtube channel. If you can share it please do🤝. Channel link - https://youtube.com/@kartinator?si=cGQFtKK9f-9QWbfi

Thus is my microphone stand. Some boxes I found in my room. Use what you got. It don't need to be cute.