Looking forward to getting started next week in the 6 week course. Proud of myself for the little steps I have already taken since attending the 5 day challenge, and can't wait to see what other changes are possible. The second AI Assessment really opened my eyes to all the possibilities.

As I finish my End of Year Reflection Worksheet I realized I have already disproven one of my beliefs that had been ruling my life. I believed nothing I did (in my personal life) really mattered. I went through my life noticing little things that needed to be done and just ignoring them. This way of life causes tasks and clutter to build up to the point of becoming overwhelming to even think about dealing with. One day last week I just decided to clean out a large area of the kitchen that was cluttered. I either found a place for each item to be stored or boxed it up to go out to the garage That area of the kitchen looks amazing, and brings me such peace and joy every time I look at it. I have kept that area clean and uncluttered for over a week now. I put everything in that area away now after I use it. I wipe the countertop down immediately if anything gets spilled on it. I have such pride in the neatness of that one little area!! Now those changes are starting to get applied to other area of the home and each day I have removed items of clutter or done something that needed to be done instead of just ignoring it. My motto has become "See it, Do it" for all the little things that would literally only take a minute to do. The change in my mood, and actually being proud of myself is now driving me to do more! And, I have evidence that what I do does matter - it matters to ME! It matters about how I fell in my environment, and it matters about how I feel about myself.

I realize I didn't interact much in this group during the 5 day challenge, most likely because one of the masks I currently like to function under is invisibility. I don't like to draw attention to myself. I avoid situations I am uncomfortable in and people I am uncomfortable with. I developed this mask soon after going to kindergarten where I was bullied from the moment I stepped on the school bus, as my Mother had cut my long beautiful red hair awkwardly short. I was relentlessly teased and picked on for something I had no control over. Then to top it off, the school figured out I couldn't see well, and I was prescribed glasses, at which time, I became even a worse target for bullying. I was the odd girl out all through school, labeled as the class loner in high school. I still try to not stand out, as to not be judged, ridiculed or given unwanted attention. My light has significantly dimmed trying to hide from being seen. I am looking forward to dancing in the light again!! I am hopeful that innocent little happy child will find her way out to play as I continue into the 6 week blueprint course.

My Assessment reminded me I don't do the things I used to. that make me feel alive. So yesterday & today I blared the music and danced in the kitchen while meal prepping and doing dishes. Sometimes it's just the little things that spark your day 📻🎸🎵

WOW- My report left me I feeling seen, understood, intelligent, and hopeful. The report mirrored back to me several things I already knew and felt, but that I felt no one else recognized about me. It also gave me insights from a different perspective, showing me how intelligent and resourceful my brain actually was to have gotten me through life this far (over 6 decades). How it protected me and shielded me, and at what cost that protection came. It pointed out I was not lazy, something I had labeled myself long ago, and explained why I often do not take action, and how my brain is different. It also showed me areas that my thinking was false and gave me examples to back that up. And lastly it recognized under what circumstances my brain was able to preform optimally. Throughout the report there where statements that caused me to choke up, get weepy or or shout from the roof tops "Finally" it all makes sense. Thank you so much for this program. I feel powerful, and that I am at the cusp of a new life as long as I keep moving forward.