I am having a lot of confusion on my spiritual path I’ve gotten to the point where I have learned that I have to choose one path to take ,but what would that path be and would I still need to grow if I’m still having these thought’s?

Just came to me and I wrote it down without any thought whatsoever ever after a meditation. It feels like you are the space, the “everything” that wraps around and watches over all things from everywhere—like a sphere that holds and hugs everything at once. This presence looks after, embraces, and protects everything, including the person you appear to be, other people, and all things. It’s always there, but we get lost inside the imagined identity of the person. For me, when I’m sober I don’t easily feel like I’m that larger presence. A small amount of cannabis amplifies my ability to sense it and to know that I am that, and to see that I’m not just the body or the person—but the presence that hugs, loves, and reassures this “character.” The person feels like a lower, denser vibration—more solid—while the other presence is a higher vibration, like a field of energy everywhere. Cannabis helps the “person” feel it, merge with it, and remember it. Even if you can’t feel it, it’s always there. A technique for someone to perceive this might be: Increase the body’s vibration—almost like creating an internal tension—using imagination to speed up your energy until it gets as high as possible. Keep raising the vibration until the body feels like it merges with the highest frequency, the frequency of everything. Since all things and all people are made of the same atoms, it’s about learning to raise their vibration or speed. The eyes may naturally lift upward, the spine may straighten to let energy flow better. This isn’t necessary, but it can make the person feel merged with the higher frequency, becoming everything, with no sense of separateness. But you can also reach it without changing the body’s frequency at all. You just have to find it and recognize that it’s there even if the body doesn’t feel it. This might be similar to self-enquiry. On lower vibrations you may not feel it as strongly, but it’s still you—the true you, not the person, who is more like a cute actor, NPC, player, or character in your own dream.

Let's share experiences together