You know what I'm talking about... Let's hear your views on the subject.

I am Starlight. I haven’t figured out how to speak without using “I” statements yet, but background/introductions are important. This might be choppy and awkward. I will try to keep it short :p I have been searching (a very long time it feels) for others that understand what is happening. My ego legitimately started to make me feel insane. Everyone in my family labeled me with various mental illnesses, as well. So, I have gotten NO true spiritual guidance. Then (growing up Catholic) you have everyone around you telling you God is outside of you, in the sky, and only reachable through a priest :’) It never resonated with me and repulsed me from the idea of God. Although, I remember vividly what is before this existence. I have memories of before I was born. So, it was chaos for many years. Misdirection from unconscious human beings. What is occurring with me, and from what I believe Rey is describing online, is not taken well by some people. However, I carried on with a secret knowing. Finding Rey’s channel on YT has solidified to my awareness that I am not crazy. I just haven’t found the right beings to be around. Thank you all for being here and I look forward to being a part of this group. Sending you all much love and peace <3

What is the harm in a white lie? What even is one? I used to think harmless little lies were fun especially if it was something that brought some good. A handmade christmas present for you, oh did I make this? Yes, absolutely. It took me *days*. I labored over it all night when I wasn't working. I had to borrow my friends sewing machine, she taught me how to use it. I learned it all on youtube. Blah blah, it was never a big deal. But as I pulled my little "prank" this year idk It just felt slimy coming out of my mouth. I felt this density sit in my chest and as they asked me questions. There wasn't a thrill of playful deception like last year. It was just... gross. I know it's not actually a big deal. But next year I will actually make the presents I claim to (I am wholly capable of doing so), or at least be honest about the ones I buy. I'm not gonna come clean completely, but I don't want to keep adding to the lie. It feels silly to be a little upset about it. I've never felt this way about it before though. Idk, I just wanted to share.