Hello, fellows, hope you all are doing great! I want to seek for any advices from you in this path. I am a full time trader. I usually tend to do great for a couple of weeks in a row, then by the third week I don't know what happens but I lose myself in front of the chats and profits escape from me substantially. And has jeopardized my performance as well as my scalability. I made some analysis on myself and things like lack of patience, attachment, bias and wanting to be right steal my presence and awareness and my ability to "just be" in from of the charts while I'm doing my job. aka. Amygdala Hijack... Maybe someone's familiar with this in other contexts, hope we can help each other!

Do any of you think these beings existed? If you do, do you think they are still here...? Also, could they be the "hidden hand" behind a lot of things?

I went into deep survival after my awakening and have been slowly recovering. There was alot of fear response for the past couple of months but my body is feeling better. I am now finding myself crying all the time, just cant name the story behind it but just experiencing alot of pain and crying. I’ve been crying almost everyday and today it’s just been happening all day. If I try to understand what’s happening underneath- I just feel alot of sadness, grief over not being held, seen, heard and forgiven. I want to understand what’s happening here. Would also love it if anyone has some space to hold me while I drown in this emotional distress

What's up? I'm here to help with the dark shit in life. If this generates enough interest, I'll make a more extensive post or something. Dark shit. It's a part of life. I love it. If you're not loving it? Let's start some dialogue, see what's going on, and see if we can get you out of here back to the world above. Chthonic: Relating to the underworld. Associated with death, decay, the unseen, and fertility. From Death, Life. Hades and Persephone. All things infernal, hellish, dark, mysterious, ghoulish, and horny. Lol. Fertility does play a large role down here. Seeds don't grow where that nice bright love and light can burn the absolute shit out of them. That nice dark embrace and comfort of the moon and stars; that's what it's all about. A womb to start learning, before you enter the world. Chaos, the mother, the void, the divine feminine. What's up? Ask questions, start a conversation, let's see what we can do together. Or call me dark, scary, and bad. Sure, that works, too, whatever, however, if it works, it works, you won't hurt my feelings. You're just missing out, is all. https://youtu.be/RRKJiM9Njr8?si=sCxk-l5yHrI_7CIA

I am realizing a lot about myself right now. I feel I need to focus on myself, care for myself and lend my energy to myself…. not to go get attention or be gluttonous but to do intentional loving, gentle care for myself that I enjoy. I feel I am disconnected from my being or my wellness and become enmeshed in my boyfriends or certain other people’s. Like I feel for others, but only really pay attention to my feelings more when it interferes with me connecting with others feelings. I am not sure if that makes sense. Actually taking time to “recharge” or find balance… like where I care for myself and tend to myself enough where naturally I step into the world in a more balanced caring way for others AND for myself. I wonder if I put the same energy into me that I put into others, if that may naturally help me find more balance in my relationships. I am not sure how to really provide care and also have appropriate boundaries FOR myself and FOR others. I feel like I wasn’t taught appropriate emotional or even physical boundaries as an adolescent. I was thinking about “self preservation while also having selfless moments” something like that. Learning to trust my intuition is new for me and I have lately tended to obsess or be a perfectionist at times. I feel exhausted by the way I am experiencing the world. I am not sure if you guys have any perspective on what it is like to care for yourself or enjoy yourself or be kind to yourself. Anything you have to share about what it’s like or what is healthy to you would be so valuable to me right now.