I think we all know hell is not a lake of fire in which we will be tortured for all eternity after death if we aren't good little monkeys. I am wondering if anyone has any useful apologetics for defending Jesus and his supposed depictions of such a place as misinterpreted or misconstrued. For example he talks about gehenna which was a place where child sacrifice/ burning took place. He also talks about a ravine of fire etc. I think fire = purification, as the Jewish people had no idea of hell and fire was purification/ God's cleansing - the burning bush for example. So when Jesus talks about fire, that is where it takes me. Purification, burning away of what is not us, hardening steal etc. I think the church added this idea of punishment for eternity to take power over the people. But I don't know the history specifically. Any references to Gnostic bibles or anything else to add would be awesome! Just trying to open a discussion my fellow monkeys :)

When I was a child, I believe around 10 ish give or take a lil, I made a journal. I had what I would consider a rough childhood is ways. I say that because I felt deeply motivated to support myself in that environment. As an adult now, I have been trying to find healing or just some presence and freedom from maybe mental or emotional captivity. I see that the pages I wrote were so soaked in creativity, color, and light. I woke up with “the power of now” playing on audible. I started making little present choices and found myself grabbing my old journal and passing through the pages. I’ve heard this idea of “reparenting” mentioned as a way of tending to the child in you that was abandoned or hurt. When I read my journal, I realized that as a child I was lending love and nurturing to myself that is truly inspiring to me now. Here are a few pages I want to share. The last page (black and white) is one that I made as an adult.

I am Starlight. I haven’t figured out how to speak without using “I” statements yet, but background/introductions are important. This might be choppy and awkward. I will try to keep it short :p I have been searching (a very long time it feels) for others that understand what is happening. My ego legitimately started to make me feel insane. Everyone in my family labeled me with various mental illnesses, as well. So, I have gotten NO true spiritual guidance. Then (growing up Catholic) you have everyone around you telling you God is outside of you, in the sky, and only reachable through a priest :’) It never resonated with me and repulsed me from the idea of God. Although, I remember vividly what is before this existence. I have memories of before I was born. So, it was chaos for many years. Misdirection from unconscious human beings. What is occurring with me, and from what I believe Rey is describing online, is not taken well by some people. However, I carried on with a secret knowing. Finding Rey’s channel on YT has solidified to my awareness that I am not crazy. I just haven’t found the right beings to be around. Thank you all for being here and I look forward to being a part of this group. Sending you all much love and peace <3

Hello everyone, how are you today? Where I live, this is the darkest and shortest day of the year, which means, from this day forward the days will again become longer and brighter. On this latitude, where we get almost no direct sunlight at this time of year, I want to contribute with a post, shining light from within in the absence. For me, this day symbolizes the pinnacle of contraction, and, this is as "bad" as it gets. Being here, at the worst, realizing that nothing is actually wrong gives me a new baseline and I intentionally use this as a point of departure, another way to remember and accepting who I am, at my worst. I want to be aware of who I am when I'm not at my best, I want to give love to this version of me, and it is at this stage, by the amount, that I can gauge and choose who I am. I choose Love, in the absence of light. Compassion, the feeling of relating to oneother's struggles with emotional reaction is a powerful experience. And at this point in my life, I am drowning in this feeling, really getting used to it. I enjoy how the feeling overwhelms me to the point of pure awe. I feel myself getting stronger by welcoming with no resistance how this feeling wash over my being. Tears in abundance, leaving a glimmering trace as these diamonds runs down over my cheeks telling a story of a soul that once more remember how to feel strong in my being. I don't care if somebody notice me, they will recognize what they witness, rare and beautiful, with no judgement. Here I sit with my thoughts of how all things are not as they should be, not trying to fix it. Joy joins the party, telling me that things can be done, by being vulnerable and open. A redemptive expression comes to life of its own. Something more than a faint hope, a knowing, that everything will come to be as long as I continue to allow myself to let go and be who I am, more and even more, every day. Peace, is that you? I think so, it feels like that. I've missed you, even for a second, and you are more than welcome back. I remember how you found me at my worst, you have always been there for me, even when I don't recognize you. Even when I've not been at my best you have always patiently waited for me to once more remember. How could I ever, ever, ever reciprocate what you do for me? You inspire me to my core, I can feel it. This time, I won't forget, the feeling is too strong to not make a permanent imprint. This time I will prioritize you more than ever before, my best friend and companion. My love, my being my everything. I forgive that I forget sometimes, and I know that you understand.

I recently just started posting content related to my spiritual journey. Just super laid back and chill videos, nothing too extravagant. If anyone feels called to watch and support that’d be awesome! I hope everyone is having a good day <3 remember, just 🐝 https://youtu.be/i5EK75Sa-y4?si=OdcAU8XdNDZNoGxa