A bit of a vulnerable post · Shimon's Elite Tribe

A bit of a vulnerable post

Hey everyone, I’ll try to keep this short and simple but basically I’m jus writing this out of an emergency…I don’t really have anyone I trust to finally admit this but I’ve been struggling with binging food alot & tbh I think is at a point now where I would call it a disorder. I’m not able to get a therapist or anything as much as I’d like to I don’t feel comfy getting one rn due to my home situation and yea like I said I don’t have anyone I trust enough to tell them what’s been going on without judgement so I can get help. Like for 3 weeks so far everything kinda been spiraling (expect for school lul) like my eating signals are super messed up, I completed stopped working out (sometimes I go on a walk or jog but I ruin it by binging junk again), and mentally I’m kinda in a roadblock as well and I’ve been wayy to much on my phone to and jus to into my head and I think I’ve also neglected my sleep for too long and😂I look like a zombie is bad.

The point is, I want to change and soon because I don’t want whatever is going on with me to continue and I kinda wish I can tell someone about this but I jus don’t have anybody yk😂ik you guys are strangers but idk I feel like you guys have better energy then most people ik irl so maybe that’s why I feel comfy jus speaking out here instead.

Anyways, i jus wanted to finally say it and admit that im doing very wrong and im not where I wanna be and the werid part is that I can’t stop ive tried and i still cant break my bad habits i dont get it why when I really do want to change (even if is hard to believe after all i wrote) is like my body wants to destroy me and my brain doesn’t understand why we aren’t working as a team anymore😂idk if that makes sense.

All of this happened so suddenly to, I was doing so good a few weeks ago and idk what happened honestly.. I just want to get better and be even greater then I was last time and become stronger in any way, I don’t want to keep doing this to myself… I can do great things and be a good person despite my environment I’m in rn but I still want to make the most of it until I can finally move out and grow ever further yk. I feel like I can do it idk why I’m screwing around rn and why I just can’t stop when I really really want to.

Anyways, to end this well first of if anyone read all of this I really do appreciate it even if you don’t comment anything, thankyou for reading and hearing out someone that wants to do a 360on their life, they jus need a bit of help yk. However if you guys do comment on this, I ask that you be respectful (like you can give me constructive criticism but without any rudeness) because ik that this is all my fault and ik that I can always stop and is “not that hard” but it really is though for me like I described my brain wants to quit this but my body won’t let it like literally, so I jus ask that anything someone comments, please be respectful and show a bit of understanding cus we all struggle and the fact that I’m being vulnerable rn to you all made me feel more encouraged so maybe in a way I can help you as well if your also struggling with anything and we can all be a community with good energy, there’s so much hate in the world, why add on to that yk what I mean.

Anywho, I’m glad I got that off my chest😂even if you guys read this or not, Ik I’ll be okay well all of us no matter what level we are in life, even though I don’t know you guys, im really grateful for everyone in this community:). I hope

You all have had a goodday/night.

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