Course Shameless & Unbreakable: My persona list of sexual shame

Hey guys. I figured I'd share my personal list of sexual shame I created as part of the shameless course. 1. I feel embarrassed due to my lack of experience romantically and platonically with females.

2. I feel like I can’t connect with them without worrying about doing something stupid. I was called creepy and awkward by a crush in eighth grade indirectly by another girl who was her friend. That girl I had a crush on never had the guts to tell me the truth to my face.

3. I started masturbation when I was 14 to curvy women on Instagram, same time I was in eighth grade. But I am doing well so far quitting this habit.

4. I am envious of people who are in relationships, especially guys that were / are dating women I was attracted to.

5. I was being compared to other guys by group of girls in my grade. One especially said to me that every woman can do better than you. That stung and made me feel like I am not good enough.

6. I fantasize about women that I am not connected with, especially those at work. There was this one woman who is gorgeous and she is in a different department. I learned last year she has a boyfriend, and I had a crush on her before. I felt silly because I can’t be able to connect with her, even on a platonic level where other men can connect with her.

7. In eighth grade, my friend and I were told by our moms that they are disappointed in us for being interested in girls. So, I never learned how to talk to women or learn how to take healthy risks with one such as PDA in public and flirting. I was afraid of getting in trouble.

8. In high school. I didn’t know how to lead a relationship, especially with a high school girlfriend. She said she always wanted me to decide, and I was too easy going about making decisions. I was afraid of messing things up or doing the wrong thing.

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