My Heart Aches · ADHD Harmony™

My Heart Aches

This is my check in for the day, I wasn't going to post. I am because I need insight on approaching the inevitable conversation with my son.

Yeah i know I said I would brain dump at night, but my heart is heavy and I don't know what to do. Arron got in a scuffle last night at the bar and the other guy punched Aaron in the face. So, I guess Sarah wanted him to go file or maybe Aaron wanted to file a police report and have the guy arrested. But Aaron has a bench warrant for an unpaid parking ticket. Which is why he never got his car fixed; he didn't want the cameras catching his plate. He says he never told us because all we would do it say how disappointed we are and that we never say how proud we are of him. My heart just fell out of my chest down to the floor and got stomped on. I am not sure what to say because what he said is not entirely true. He got arrested before and we dealt with it. We were disappointed that he felt he could not come to us. Although the things he does are foolish and reckless. Anyway, i don't know how to approach because i do not want to stand there and defend myself. Maybe not as often as I should, but I do say I am proud and appreciate the work he has done. I always ask please and say thank you. If I did not appreciate him, I would not be saying that. My dad never said please and thank you, it was 'do...'. This goes back to the conversation Avi and I had yesterday. I got it then and more so now.

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