As of today, I can honestly say I have made more progress in this program than I did in a year of EMDR. It was just at the end of that journey that I realized emotions were the point, not some great mental epiphany - so I had that step in the right direction. Enter SAGE. I'm in Week ONE of the six-week program. Between the Free Challenge and this ONE week in the Program I have shed more tears AND come to understand more patterns, themes and even strengths, than I did in that year. The more I experience this Program, the more impressed I am. I know there's a LOT out there on the internet these days. This is authentic feedback and I'm willing to speak in person with anyone who's got questions about my experience so far. 🤩

📅 Daily Check-in - March 26, 2026 💭 Reflection: "Yesterday got better as the day went on. I was worried about Aaron and what was going to happen. He paid his outstanding ticket and filed the police report. The police will do the rest now. Rough getting through tax return reviews. Just so many errors that could have been avoided had they just looked. Looking forward to some time off for Passover, but then again I am not. Aaron came over for dinner, we talked for a few hours, mostly about what is wrong with the world. I did tell him that he should never worry about disappointing me and that he should feel like he can talk to me about anything and we will figure it out. On one hand, a lot of his thoughts are really from shit Sarah says, which I told him she and I have different thoughts on things. On the other hand, I feel like a failed father that he could not come to me and carried this burden for that past 2 years, which has stopped him from doing work and putting him in a deeper depression. As i said yesterday, I am trying to not make this about me, but I can't hide that I am disappointed he felt he could not come to me and I did not instill my love and support. I know my own experience was to never tell my parents anything unless I absolutely had to. Hoping shit would magically disappear. Which is probably why now, I ignore stuff hoping it will go away. But as I recall, my parents never instilled in us that we could come to them for anything. Always thought I was a better parent than my parents. Now, i have my doubts."

This is my check in for the day, I wasn't going to post. I am because I need insight on approaching the inevitable conversation with my son. Yeah i know I said I would brain dump at night, but my heart is heavy and I don't know what to do. Arron got in a scuffle last night at the bar and the other guy punched Aaron in the face. So, I guess Sarah wanted him to go file or maybe Aaron wanted to file a police report and have the guy arrested. But Aaron has a bench warrant for an unpaid parking ticket. Which is why he never got his car fixed; he didn't want the cameras catching his plate. He says he never told us because all we would do it say how disappointed we are and that we never say how proud we are of him. My heart just fell out of my chest down to the floor and got stomped on. I am not sure what to say because what he said is not entirely true. He got arrested before and we dealt with it. We were disappointed that he felt he could not come to us. Although the things he does are foolish and reckless. Anyway, i don't know how to approach because i do not want to stand there and defend myself. Maybe not as often as I should, but I do say I am proud and appreciate the work he has done. I always ask please and say thank you. If I did not appreciate him, I would not be saying that. My dad never said please and thank you, it was 'do...'. This goes back to the conversation Avi and I had yesterday. I got it then and more so now.

Just saying... Psychology says men without close friends usually aren't socially incompetent — they were raised in a culture that taught them vulnerability with other men was weakness, and by the time they realize the cost, everyone's already scattered – VegOut https://share.google/v0AGStSAzxbq6vw1r

Jim has talked about trackers that he uses to track biometric data such has sleep, heart, etc. I'm on the fence. I can see me getting one, but not really digging into the data. Wondering what benefit(s) people are seeing by using one. thank you