Day 3: I said no to delaying 👍

When finishing watching the recording, I had an urge to check social media, but I said NO. Not in a restricting way, but in a "I actually have better things to do" way 😀

I think my reason for not finishing projects and having trouble doing them in the first place, is the risk of failure. But I realised that for me, failure was not being the best. And that not being the best, is still fine.

I have trained to be an illustrator my entire life, but have not actively pursued it, because I could see that many was better than me. What inspired me to try to start around a year ago, was reading books to my kids, where some of the illustrations are really bad technically. But I still had that voice in my head saying "yes, you don't like the illustrations, buy they are illustrating books, you are not, so your illustrations must lack something/is not the style people like" and so on.

But maybe it is just because I have not really tried!

Speaking of illustrations and looking back, I found this self-portrait from around 20 years ago. It say (from the outside)

Metal. Don't reveal anything going on beneath the smooth surface.
Black granite. Scares most people away, but are maybe not that hard to get through.
Glass. Breaks easily.
? I don't know yet.

And I still don't know. But I will work on my self-image and visualise a respected illustrator, that is finishing her projects without procrastination 👍😀

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