So being super vulnerable iv hate some actual hate for being honest maybe people don’t understand the 12 years after cancer why I’m only just about too get somewhat better So after my last operation I was given a medical irrigation and just told too do as much as needed It got that bad was in out of hospital 10-10 in pain had spoken too doctor and done my videos too go too Belgium too get put too sleep With no clue how I would get there not knowing I was so so close too death because this is the truth I don’t mind dying I just Neva wanted too do it as I believe in god and don’t want too go too hell In my head doing it the league way was ok ish id made peace with that part But little did I know I was only 48 hours from death I truly just Neva wanted too make that choice but wow this is so so so hard but honestly if he would have told me that’s all the suffering I had left I would Neva have started this recovery Because it’s been the most traumatic experience of my life so much worse than stage 4 cancer but somehow I’m still hear and I suffer so much each day still and I really think that’s why it’s so incredibly important that people don’t think iv lied I mean who would But honestly adults were screaming at my daughter saying they were gona beat her I don’t live that way and I really don’t want it getting worse for her just because I share my story sharing my story helps me get free from the pain so iv always been against proving my self cause why should I right but maybe it’s time for the hospital notes that state palliative care and actually states in black and white rectel cancer almost impossible for it not too return So I have too live with that every single day there r even letters just addressing my daughters dad as too what she should do come 16 as could be genetic Now that in its self should tell u they had no hope Anyway I’m being super super vulnerable iv Neva faced anything like this I mean who would lie keep up the lie too get more poorly no support for what and how can adults be like that with a child even if I had done something wrong it’s very worrying

Hi glad to be apart of the community, little about myself Iam a retired LPN worked in a Hospital for 11 yrs and then 36 years in a Nursing Home. I am an avid gardener and have lots house plants and 2 black cats. I am all about Natural Healing. I am 79 years young! Think that enough for now😊

I've always struggled with being the outsider and wanting to belong. But at the same time, hating the idea of just being part of the crowd, of conforming and merging into the 2.4 mentality. I grew up in a really unusual way and everywhere I am, I feel I am the outsider, even in my own family. Yet everywhere I go I'm driven to find belonging, and rarely do. In tonight's workshop (day one of the three day), when we were doing the short breathwork practice, I joined the dots and heard the question in my head 'what would happen if I belonged?', then heard myself reply 'I would disappear'. I instantly realised I've spent my life sabotaging my ability to belong anywhere because I'm afraid I'll disappear into nothing, be no one of importance, a sheep in the flock. And being the a child of trauma I learnt early on that survival meant being useful, and safety meant being seen. I always put it down to not wanting to conform to the crowd, but it hit me like a brick tonight, belonging means disappearing. I've held this as a core belief my entire life. My work now is let this go. I'm leaving space for a new belief, not forcing one. I'll hold this space in my daily practice to welcome in whatever comes next, with love, no more fear!

So iv done lots of healing due too poor health after almost dying the breath work showed up it was my partner I spoke too her so many times We said we would start together 15 months ago she got worse then I found out she ruined my pop car stole my money hid 1000,s in debts and she says it’s love it was 1 too many things well she was so not aligned too me it’s so hard I love her and she helped me when I was dying but I do know it’s the right thing but it’s hard

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