Hello 👋🏼 Some of you noticed I took a little step away from social media and I want to start by saying thank you so much to those who checked in on me. That kindness is never, ever taken for granted. 💜 Unfortunately I needed to make the decision to leave my partner. I don't bring people into my life lightly & I don't make the decision to remove them lightly either. Both need to happen from a place of love, for them & myself, not overwhelm... Sadly what began as flattering, & high energy has actually been slowly eroding my self-esteem & draining my joy & optimism by having to always be the grown-up. In amongst that one of my friends passed away so staying offline to process, grieve with mutual friends, and support her family was just common sense. That said, it absolutely hasn't all been shit, I'm already feeling more like my old self & I hope you're all thriving & having an incredible weekend!

Had a refocus last weekend cause realised my goals, aims and motivation were out of date. Upped my weights and added some different exercises. Feel absolutely fab 💪🏼💪🏼. This weekend I’ll review diet.

You're 18/19, an athlete, training for volleyball twice a day, 4 days a week with games at weekends. You feel that you're in best shape of your life. But in reality, yes you're fit and have energy but you know nothing about nutrition or hydration. You're in a toxic, abusive relationship. You're immature and have minimal life experience. Then at 20, you escape the relationship but you get injured, you lose your Mom (your soul mate, your biggest supporter). You go into self destruct mode. You have minimal support around you. All forms of exercise stops. You enter the student era, drinking all night, dragging your ass through uni and smoking. You're ashamed of who you are and feel completely broken. This lasts for 2 years and then you get help. But at 22 you get salmonella, you're so poorly you're unable work and go from a size 14 to a size 8 in 3 months, and are borderline anorexic for over a year. Your body is in a huge state of shock. You get a motorbike, one of your dreams, but you're too weak to ride and have to sell it within 6 months. (Pic 1) At 23 you try to get strong and fit again. You've not smoked in a year and a half and you try to find yourself again. You start with Lean in 15 and you're looking good. (Pic 2-3) At 24, you come off contraception after 11 years of being on in constantly. Your body hates this change, and starts to play up. You're mis-diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/ME and Fibromyalgia, and are told that this is what your life will be from now. You're on walking sticks, you can just about get to work and back but then you're back in bed. Goodbye social life and exercise. The weight creeps on. You're house bound. Hello depression (No photos). At 25 you get engaged and start the cereal diet 🫣 you want to look good when you get married. At 26 you get married and you're told it's unlikely you'll have kids (Pic 4 with my brother) But then a miracle, pregnancy. You realise about the misdiagnosis of CFS/ME after falling pregnant. Your hormonal change almost resets your body and it's the best you've felt in a long time. Only to be hit with SPD in the 2nd trimester and you're now on crutches. Pregnancy weight happens.

On holiday with my in laws - just me, left the husband at home 😂. Planned to do some body weight based exercises but I think their bed doesn’t agree with me and in so much back and knee pain I can’t face exercising. Brain says yes: body says no 😔

My niece and I love taskmaster, so last year I made a similar type game for us to play. Now every time they are here she expects one. I can’t decide which was the funniest thing, making my sister-in-law plank while my father failed to name animals in alphabetical order, my parents then painting a portrait of the dog, mum using her big toe and dad his chin, which ment that dad went to lunch at a restaurant with a blue tinged beard or my sister in law shouting at my brother as he was pulling her hair while trying to get her in and out of a sleeping bag. Definitely don’t do that the day after an abs work out, I can’t move 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣