Ever since I got back from Thanksgiving break, I have been unable to hold my guard up, and that’s why I have been falling. It seems that every time I come back to my apartment and being all alone again, I always am most vulnerable to temptation and I am most likely to give in every time, and I am very weak. I know that the enemy is trying to keep me down here, but I will not let him and I shall rise. Therefore, your prayers would be appreciated at this time for me to find my direction again and that I find Jesus again. Thank you🙏🏻

This is the last month of daily episodes for my podcast, just reached episode 586. For November i set a goal of 500 subscribers and 100k views. I surpassed that with 564 subscribers and 110,650 views! 💪🏽 My project has primarily only been a podcast. Now i’m working to build out the YouTube and other channels. I also just finished the final revisions of the 4 books I sell. Lots of progress these last few months. Thanks for the support of those who gave me follows / comments :) consistency always wins! to celebrate i just made this short channel introduction. let me know what you think 😊 cheers & have a great week ahead 🥂

Hey yall hope you guys doin good, i just dropped my first vid and i was wondering if i could get some advice on it, i didnt rly give editing my all as i wanted to just get something out rather then thinking on it for dayshttps://youtu.be/xoFJB8dgPeI?si=Tdjp82v9_BJTrV5A and days

Hey everyone, I’ll try to keep this short and simple but basically I’m jus writing this out of an emergency…I don’t really have anyone I trust to finally admit this but I’ve been struggling with binging food alot & tbh I think is at a point now where I would call it a disorder. I’m not able to get a therapist or anything as much as I’d like to I don’t feel comfy getting one rn due to my home situation and yea like I said I don’t have anyone I trust enough to tell them what’s been going on without judgement so I can get help. Like for 3 weeks so far everything kinda been spiraling (expect for school lul) like my eating signals are super messed up, I completed stopped working out (sometimes I go on a walk or jog but I ruin it by binging junk again), and mentally I’m kinda in a roadblock as well and I’ve been wayy to much on my phone to and jus to into my head and I think I’ve also neglected my sleep for too long and😂I look like a zombie is bad. The point is, I want to change and soon because I don’t want whatever is going on with me to continue and I kinda wish I can tell someone about this but I jus don’t have anybody yk😂ik you guys are strangers but idk I feel like you guys have better energy then most people ik irl so maybe that’s why I feel comfy jus speaking out here instead. Anyways, i jus wanted to finally say it and admit that im doing very wrong and im not where I wanna be and the werid part is that I can’t stop ive tried and i still cant break my bad habits i dont get it why when I really do want to change (even if is hard to believe after all i wrote) is like my body wants to destroy me and my brain doesn’t understand why we aren’t working as a team anymore😂idk if that makes sense. All of this happened so suddenly to, I was doing so good a few weeks ago and idk what happened honestly.. I just want to get better and be even greater then I was last time and become stronger in any way, I don’t want to keep doing this to myself… I can do great things and be a good person despite my environment I’m in rn but I still want to make the most of it until I can finally move out and grow ever further yk. I feel like I can do it idk why I’m screwing around rn and why I just can’t stop when I really really want to.

Hey everyone! I hope you’re all doing well. I haven’t posted anything on here in a while simply because I just haven’t been in the right frame of mind to get what I want off my chest. I’ve been thinking a lot about going ghost and disappearing. I know it’s weird. If you’re going ghost, why make a public post about your shitty life, right? I’m just letting you guys know that I’m trying not to let my past and future dictate my present. Despite being in a very dark place right now, I’m trying to be grateful for everything and moving forward without any limitations and distractions. It’s not easy being hopeful during this lonely chapter but I’m making a slow and steady comeback to being who I’m destined to be. My goals are to keep working on my French, improving my physique, learning a skill or two, and building my confidence from within. I don’t know how, but I know I will become better. I hope you all take care of yourselves and wish you all the best.