A little " to think about " topic
Hey everyone !! I hope that you guys are doing good with your lives . I wanna talk about something that's been bothering me to a very high extent . So , in my day-to-day life , I usually hide my spiritual / mental perspective from my parents because I still live with them and I know that if I show my " real self " , I will definitely get harmed . So , the day before yesterday Dad was scrolling and saw a " covered woman " , as they refer to them in the concept of religion , doing a TikTok live , walking outside and speaking He started to judge her and attack her and telling me this is not a woman , she's not polite ( the meaning of polite here is shrinking herself outside because men told her so ) , when I defended her , I was the one harmed ( mentally ) cuz I knew that deep down the goal of the whole conversation was to show how ( righteous ) he is and how that what I was talking about was an absolute trash though I know that it was pure patriarchal beliefs that he was tryna indoctrinate in my mind . He tried to religiously guilt trip me saying oh I doubt your religion . And of course what he used to reinforce his arguments " religion " , to make me fear the fact that a prophet or God said something misogynistic , I have to accept it because a holy person said so , without thinking or questioning whether it's trash or something logical . I had an anxiety attack because a boundary of mine was " abused " , and the fact that I couldn't escape the conversation . And you have my mother from the other side justifying and praising what he was saying to feed his ego more and more . He has done this whole thing yesterday too , and it was so hard for me to take , I had a lump in my throat ( but I didn't want to cry ) , I told him yes , it is okay if a woman is being herself outside , is yelling , calling someone she knows from a farm distance . The only goal was to indulge his beliefs intoy mind , when he really can't because I'm aware , I'm not a 15 year old anymore , I'm grown and I know what he's about .