Deb, absolutely love your response. Yes. I have been told for 6 years that I am not broken! But it hasn't yet penetrated my gut or even my brain! I have been doing therapy of all sorts in a desperate attempt to fix myself before I die🙃! Actually also I think to bring back my departed husband. My grief is huge. Changing those core beliefs is a challenge. Yes lets do this. Your flowers meet my hens.

Its OK Deb about a schedule, that's what I would like too. I also have a catch up to do. And I hadnt thought of you as a stalker but thanks for trying to reassure me. And fyi I do better without advice. It gives me the sense that other people think they know better than me. If you were starting this at 78 you might have a different view of physical and mental health challenges. I dont regard chronic pain, inflammation and indigestion as a hidden strength. They are worsening consequences that need to be reversed. So I am going to reframe my statement to something stronger. I do need to fix this or I will die. There is another consequence of people giving advice. I stop wanting to share vulnerably. I sense your kindness in your trying to fix me!!!! I hope I have been clear without being cruel.

Thank you all for this and bringing Focusmate to my attention. I do know how much accountability groups help. perhaps we can do something informally in this group. For instance those of us in NZ struggling with time zones, there seem to be several kiwis here. I have jopined in with an American group called Seek healing and they do an accountability session once a week in our afternoon so that suits me. But I do want more than that

I related to that gradually dawning realisation. It explains a lot and gives me hope