I grew up in a small town in the U.S., but although I grew up in the country, I was exposed to the city. I played sports and did what everyone around me did. As I grew up, I was what I thought was the perfect balance, I did what I was supposed to but I was also rebellious and partied and snuck into the city at any chance I could in my teenage years…, but deep down I always knew there should be more. And I always knew that I was a little bit different, that I could see through the veil of the matrix. So I did what I thought at the time was very “different” (and it was different for people from small-town Wisconsin), I decided to study fashion and moved to Europe, where I studied and worked for nine years. And even though I felt like I had reached a goal and manifested what I had wanted for so long, I still felt so numb, like I was ignoring the small voice inside me telling me that this wasn't my path, that this wasn’t the life I was supposed to live, or what I was meant to do. Even though I had worked my ass off to get to this point, living and working in Europe in the fashion industry, I knew there was something more out there, something I’d be more passionate about. And this was all despite the fact that I had even just won an award in the fashion industry and a grant to start my own business. At the time, my life was defined by living for the moments outside of work. I was living a conflicted life my yoga and spiritual practices were deepening, but I was also partying on the weekends. As appealing as the hedonism was, it never felt as good as I did when I was doing yoga or with people I could have deep conversations with. I craved depth. I wanted to make a difference. But I was struggling with the fact that the fashion industry felt so unsustainable, so ego-driven, so consumeristic. As much as I loved the expression of fashion, I didn’t resonate working in the industry anymore. Around that time, I started being pulled toward holistic healing: hypnosis, yoga, sound baths, anything that helped me connect deeper. Living in Berlin, I had access to all of it, and I was trying everything.

I’ve always been a lively child, full of colors and emotions — funny, and very loving. I’ve always worn my differences with pride: half Italian, half Polish, daughter of two separated parents who somehow learned to care for each other again. So I grew up in a family where love was wide and free. But my biggest love was for my dad. He taught me to be strong, to stay close to nature, to create and stay in touch with the world — because he often told me that the world could be, and often was, cruel. Yet I felt protected; I was little, wrapped in safety. Then, in the summer of my 12th or 13th year, I had my first shock of awareness. I fell into a depressive state, into the depth of my emotions — and the only thing that helped me face myself became writing, poetry. I felt emotions so strong they hurt my chest, and the more I wrote, the more I discovered how sensitive I truly was. So sensitive that on New Year’s Eve of 2020, I felt fear for the first time — the fear of losing the people I love. While others were celebrating a year still unknown to us, I was writing a poem that later turned out to be a premonition. Everything grew after that — dreams, thoughts, visions, tears, fears — until that moment arrived. November 21, 2020. I felt my innocence being torn from my heart. I felt the weight of having to become a woman on my own, with no more safety behind my back. My dad passed away, and suddenly all the sensations I had felt before started to make sense. It terrified me. I locked myself in my room — long nights crying, endless hours of sleep, because sleep felt close to death, but never quite reached it. Meanwhile, life went on. So fast that it didn’t even give me a single day to pause. I kept going with school, all the way to graduation. In the meantime, I had started smoking, I searched for my father’s figure in other people, I opened up to the wrong ones, and worsened my relationships at home. The only constant was my attraction to spirituality — though I already knew my family didn’t agree with these topics.

Im gonna take the time that i need for explaining my vision. I will use also some photos and one video that I found for share with u what i really mean. Its started from this Monday with my first call of our community. They asked us this question and just this morning I had my answer. You know, your mind is intelligent and if u ask yourself something, maybe not now but the next days, it’s gonna give u the answer. And here is mine. I can imagine a place that it’s full of PEOPLE, full presence and not empty body. It’s not about happiness, it’s about consciousness, contact with your soul and more. I can feel in this place really high frequencies, people are full of story, everybody knows something different but everybody also feel that we are all one. I can see the technology and nature collaborating together. I can see our natural food eaten from children and not che processed ones. I can see really long camps of vegetables planted looking at the real natural calendar, also woman using it and feeling more connected with themselves and really being about of feeling the god woman power. In the first years of the baby, actually they are still connected with their soul and also take all the silent lessons from their parent.. I can see these babies being able to still feel their soul even if they are grown. Being able to listen to themself, being able to feel their body, their emotion, not feeling fear about being less or just themself or being alive in this world. And then I can see the love that can be in this high frequency place… Two people that are into their own lives mission, that they respect their body, training, giving their best to the world and also living really a value to others, in love with themselves. And then building a love that it’s not necessary, it’s a sane choice to be together, having then the time for the children, being able to leave less traumas as possible… Love in a high frequency. I can also see Chinese medicine, everybody being able to use plants to cure themself, reiki, Qi Gong, sports, spirituality books, herbalism and more…

At a certain point in your life, you have to make THE choice. 6 years ago was one of the biggest YouTubers teaching Instagram, sharing algorithm updates and how to growth hack the followers game. I was living in a $2M apartment, wasting money at the club. From the outside, I had made it. But on the inside I was dying... I had just come home from Ibiza... A trip to celebrate @Leo Armaad turning 21 I believe. We had rented a massive villa with 2 other online business bros. We had booked VIP tables in the club, loaded up on coke and booz and was ready for the time of our lives. The first night out, I got so drunk I blacked out and missed out on all the team photos. One of the bouncers had poured a bucked of ice water over my head, and nothing. I was out cold. The next night was better as we got to watch Steve Aioki perform his magic, while spending thousands on all kinds of nonsense that should not be named. Then one week later... Me and @Leo Armaad traveled to the north side of the island for our first mushroom ceremony. The north side of Ibiza has a large spiritual community, and this would be both of our first deep dive into the world of spirituality. This is where I got introduced to Wim Hof Breathwork for the first time. Long story short, it was a beautiful experience. I came home to Norway a changed man. And there was a rift in my psyche... Two worlds colliding. The world of unconsciousness. And the world of consciousness. The world of consumerism. And the world of the conscious creator. "How do I show up on social media and grow my brand in this unconscious landscape, as a conscious person becoming more and more conscious by the day??!?!?" Nothing worked... Everything felt like an uphill battle. I did more ceremonies, more breathwork, more high ticket masterminds, but non of it gave me a clear path out. For 5 years I was stuck in this realm. Of confusion and suffering. Of not knowing what the fucking is happening with my life, or where I was going. Confused with my brand and business. My energy levels was all over the place. Sometimes the only way to get through a team meeting was to snort a line of Ritalin or coke.

Epic adventure day today with the firm, scouting for land. Honestly, getting lost in the jungle got me absolutely gassed. Lowkey just wanna spend all day in nature. It's a blessed life. We looked at 3 different locations today. Took about 3 hours scanning all the land. Below is a photo dump from all the different options. More to share soon. Bali might be the spot ngl...