"I refuse to play the game. I refuse to flatter egos. I refuse to pretend everything's fine. I refuse to smile when something inside me is breaking. And my refusal is powerful, but it's also lonely." - Deep Thinkers (ebook)

The matrix had me, but now I am free. I am simply having fun bending reality to my will until I exit the simulation and never return.

Hello New Earth community! Let me start by saying; I feel like an odd bird here, never even having made an Instagram post in my life. So my breakthrough story simply has to go here, and who knows—maybe this is what leads me to making my first ever post eventually. I was a big corporation executive until 10 years ago. When I left, I did what most former executives do—I became an advisor and management consultant to other corporations. In 2021, I discovered a new business opportunity in helping the growing creator economy founders build offshore company structures to pay as little tax as legally possible. My language was MONEY, and all that mattered was making as much of it as possible by helping others making more. Two years ago, something switched. Me, at the time a fierce atheist and the ultimate materialistic, self-sufficient logician, had the most unexpected experience: a direct personal encounter with God. It was the start of a journey towards a total awakening to the transcendent, a new understanding of what it means to be human, and with a new, higher purpose. A year ago, nearly to the date today, I closed my business. I retreated into silence, asceticism, prayer, and contemplation. It totally turned me off from the conventional business environment. It even literally turned me off money! For a while, I believed that the only viable path forward for me would be a commitment to the monastic life. The fact that I have a wife and four children convinced me this is not the path God has intended for the remainder of my earthly dwelling 😂 So, I am now returning to the fallen world with a new mission—to help a new generation of conscious entrepreneurs build companies that reflect their soul and carries their mission. I believe the world has enough self-proclaimed gurus, so I am resisting the temptation to share what I have discovered, experienced, and gained from my spiritual journey and my practices of ancient mysticism (just google "Hesychasm" 😉). Instead, I want to direct my more than 20 years of experience from building and optimizing business on the highest level towards supporting a new generation of conscious creators and mission-driven entrepreneurs.

I grew up in the Netherlands. As a child, I was always very shy. From a young age, there was a strong drive of energy inside me to create. I drew a lot, loved being outside, and played football with friends as much as I could. From the outside, I probably looked like a calm, quiet kid, but on the inside I wanted so much more than I was actually doing. I noticed that I found it very difficult to express myself, and over time this made me smaller and smaller. Eventually, I didn’t really dare to speak my own opinion anymore because I was always afraid of what other people would think of me. Am I doing this right? Can I even say this? Why would I say this? Because of several things that happened during that period, these feelings only grew stronger… The moment that had a major impact on me came when I was in high school. A very close friend of mine had presumably taken his own life. It felt unreal and made me think deeply. I had actually been shielding myself from my emotions for years. Why did this happen? I also quickly realized that I absolutely hated school and that it was slowly shaping me into someone I didn’t want to be. I drew less, stayed inside more, and started wondering: is this really all life has to offer me? I began thinking more in terms of problems and things I didn’t want to do. Even though I was in a gymnasium-level program, I felt no drive to learn. I skipped classes a lot and was completely tangled up inside myself. I found it very hard to ask for help—I simply didn’t dare—so I pretended everything was fine and drifted through this phase of my life without any real direction. While cycling to school one day, I had a serious accident and hit my head on a curb. The result was a concussion, jaw problems, and a broken nose (which I only found out much later). I refused to ask for help because I thought it would be fine and because I felt ashamed. About two years later, I was involved in a car accident, and I’m extremely grateful that I’m still here today.

I am awakening to the many deceptions of this world/construct. As I begin to realize the truths that has been hidden from all of us, I know that we are all a fragment of God experiencing all aspects of existence. I began to “wake up” 5 years ago, when my son transitioned into the next stage of his existence due to a traumatic drowning accident. Followed shortly thereafter by the cancer diagnosis that my father received and his heart wrenching transition from this existence. As you can imagine, I began to question everything about this life and the constructs we are force fed until believed. That is where I found you speaking truths that resonated so deeply I could not deny them. My goal is to free my family from the shackles of debt and then share my journey with those who have eyes to see and ears to hear. My hometown is in desperate need of a holistic healing space and I will answer the call. This space will help teach others to heal from the inside out, starting with proper nutrition, meditation, yoga, sound baths, energy enhancement, herbs, oils, tinctures and an abundance of other natural resources. Namaste fam! I can’t wait to see what we can do together!!! 💛☀️🌙⭐️👑