I grew up in a small town in the U.S., but although I grew up in the country, I was exposed to the city. I played sports and did what everyone around me did. As I grew up, I was what I thought was the perfect balance, I did what I was supposed to but I was also rebellious and partied and snuck into the city at any chance I could in my teenage years…, but deep down I always knew there should be more. And I always knew that I was a little bit different, that I could see through the veil of the matrix. So I did what I thought at the time was very “different” (and it was different for people from small-town Wisconsin), I decided to study fashion and moved to Europe, where I studied and worked for nine years. And even though I felt like I had reached a goal and manifested what I had wanted for so long, I still felt so numb, like I was ignoring the small voice inside me telling me that this wasn't my path, that this wasn’t the life I was supposed to live, or what I was meant to do. Even though I had worked my ass off to get to this point, living and working in Europe in the fashion industry, I knew there was something more out there, something I’d be more passionate about. And this was all despite the fact that I had even just won an award in the fashion industry and a grant to start my own business. At the time, my life was defined by living for the moments outside of work. I was living a conflicted life my yoga and spiritual practices were deepening, but I was also partying on the weekends. As appealing as the hedonism was, it never felt as good as I did when I was doing yoga or with people I could have deep conversations with. I craved depth. I wanted to make a difference. But I was struggling with the fact that the fashion industry felt so unsustainable, so ego-driven, so consumeristic. As much as I loved the expression of fashion, I didn’t resonate working in the industry anymore. Around that time, I started being pulled toward holistic healing: hypnosis, yoga, sound baths, anything that helped me connect deeper. Living in Berlin, I had access to all of it, and I was trying everything.