Yesterday at bedtime well most bedtimes, is when I tend to crack and lose control of emotions or I’m just rushing through the routine of it. My oldest daughter likes to dawdle quite bit around these times and I always get on her about it. So not just this week but most days I lay them down I’m doing this but tonight before we start I’m going to breathe and get to a good spot in my core and be intentional with what I say and instead of correct actions I will connect with my actions. If I feel myself getting tight and frustrated I will breathe again and get through the bedtime routine without losing control and being grounded and more present during this time.

- One trait I’ve reclaimed this week is being irritable. Here’s the moment I lived it. I love to work with my hands and take on every task. In the past I would become irritable if it didn’t go my way! I would become annoyed with myself and would throw a tool or smack it against something totally losing my cool! Yesterday I was working on the house and putting back a storage system after being painted and was struggling to get in between the cabinet and vanity to put the screws in a brace. It took 20 minute to put 2 screws in and I slightly got irritated but then I immediately went into breathing and thinking how to get this and just ended up asking my mom too hold the cabinet tilted up even though it required removing to screws and someone help and it took me 10 seconds to fix and I just ended up laughing at myself instead of letting it bring my mood down for the rest of the day like it usually would have!

Went to my son’s school (where the girl would be, the one that I cheated on my wife with) and it was smooth sailing! My wife was fine and I notice thoughts flowing like a river with no problem ! I felt grounded even with the racing thoughts. Spoke to my wife after and we were both really pleased with how we felt about the situation! Grateful for This group!

Just had a conversation with my wife and she was talking to me about her emotions over I how made her feel in the past and her emotions over our wedding day (which long story short was a shit show) but during this conversation I was able to remain grounded for most of the conversation and was able to breathe and stay present and hold space for her emotions. In the past this same conversation would have went south quickly but I could feel a huge difference in myself!

Today I woke up when I said I would worked on the 142 traits men’s workshop, did my breath work for the day and went for a run! This morning is off to a great start.