Identify Level: I believe from this situation I'm at Level 2 The stages of Evolution is something I've been noticing a lot recently but felt daft to seeing it that way. The confession I posted about the talk with my partner about GMM showed me that at one point she walked off. I would've stayed in that space, basically waited for her to come back and had the same results. But when it happened I decided fine I need to cool off too, so I left the space as well, went for a walk did some breathing. I can back more grounded. I'm still at the point where I could navigate the situation as you all saw, I retreated to my old self when I saw how she reacted to this need for change. But now I know there will be another opportunity, and that gap will get smaller and smaller 🤏 My drill to practice daily (With Alarm implemented!) Practice the drill out loud today (say a heated line fast vs. slow and notice the shift). * and hopefully "Use it once in real conflict this week"

Last night I snapped at my partners Grandfather. I won't get into it but It was a stressful situation for all of us. Most the time I had been grounded but then when the tension of the situation rose and I had commands from multiple direction. I momentarily lost my feet and raised my voice. I re-grounded myself after this moment and helped out others in the situation and came to group with more presence. I apologised and thankfully her grandfather recognised the stress of the situation and my attempt to help, rather than the volume/tone it was portrayed. Nevertheless, this was a snap moment for me. Next time I will have a pattern interrupt - likely with a rubber band, to signal to myself that my anxiety is raising and I need to recognise the situation, not just the direction

I've not told my partner about the GMM, until tonight. They confronted me about an alarm they saw an alarm that I had labelled "Appearing to be Good" an activity I was doing from NMMNG. I tried to explain what the course was and why I was doing it. My partner just saw it as another way of trying to change myself, another endeavour to be perfect. They said why can't I see that trying to change is changing the person they love. We ended it on we aren't going to agree that I do this course, but I can do what I want. They said I'm looking at it like a problem to fix and I need to just let stuff go. It's like I have everything I want to tell them about why I'm doing it, what I feel it wrong with me, why I want to change and then they make points that I agree with and I just lose all direction of where I want to take the conversation I'm lost lads, I've got everything I want right in front of me and I feel like I'm pushing it away and I don't know how to stop it.

Hard Cut Off Times: I will only do my work during these times 11/26/25: 7:30am-7pm 11/27:25: 9am-10am 11/28/25: 9am-10am 11/29/25: 9am-10am 11/30/25: 9am-9:15am, 4pm-12:30am (office job) 12/01/25: 7:30am-8pm 12/02/25: 7:30am-9pm 12/03/25: 7:30am 5:30pm

What I currently struggling with is keeping to my own opinions and thoughts. People keep influencing mine and what I think and it’s hurting me in not making my own full decisions right away which isn’t good for my getting quick thinking in. What I need from you guys is to ask questions that would get me really to think about life and the direction I want to head with my recent decisions on moving, selling my business and the jobs I will be applying for!