Christmas Eve day started when I went to the garage to workout but had water about 6 ft into the garage - so I swept water out and cleaned for an hour then had to get on with the day… instead of feeling like I missed my window to workout- I shifted gears and did an afternoon workout- rowing. Low on water and protein. Leader habit: does screaming till I cried out of frustration from both my lazy and greedy landlord and my ex who can’t communicate without starting every conversation with me with an insult to me… does that count? Trying so hard to be joyful for my son who is excited for Santa to come tonight but I just want to crawl in a hole!! Praying God gives me some peace and a winning lotto ticket so I can pay rent in a few days. Ready for a new chapter!! This is my motivation