Have an amazing Labor Day for all the hard working men out there that keeps our country and world turning. And also to the retired men who labored, and hopefully are able to reap the fruits of their labor in their retirement years!

Jusr venting, TLDR: So, in some calls and conversations I've mentioned my financial struggles and I always find a way to make it work, but I've been asking for a raise for a long time trying to find the thing that would get me there. While on leave, I spent a lot of time in therapy going over everything I've ever done since starting my employment, and I presented it to them like "hey I know you've said no, but have you considered everything else I've done?" At the inn where I started, I cross-trained myself to work housekeeping, kitchen and dining room, and run the front desk without fail. I would step in when shorthanded or when there was a football game in town. When I moved to afternoons, they installed a new reservation system and I figured out how to streamline the entire process, reduce errors, and gave people better rates. I trained management how to do their job. After COVID hit, I doubled my workload to keep things running and they promoted someone else. They split the assistant manager position into 2 parts. In the grand scheme of things, they gave someone else the title i worked for and they gave me a small title to appease me. I did everything right. I took control of everything without any of them listening to anything I said. They just wrote it off as me being upset that I didn't get what I wanted. After my time had plateued there, I transferred to the corporate office and have been the admin since. I continued supporting the inn and took on MORE while there. I offered to be available more and pick up more if it meant I got more income. And they threw it all back in my face. I'm "paid within the scope of my job" and writing off everything I did as volunteer work. I spent 10 years clawing my way through this and they just said it means nothing. I really wanted to be wrong and think that SOMETHING would have some impact, but I was right. I feel so defeated and worthless. I know that doesn't make it true, but I tried so hard and it ultimately meant nothing. My body has folded and refuses to do anything without making it a huge ordeal, and I'm so freaking tired of putting so much of myself into something and getting nothing but more struggle. I really feel like my next best thing is to just walk out or force them to fire me. I can't justify trying anymore and it is really hard for me to start over.