Small but substantial win on suffering
Hey guys, A couple weeks ago I came back from the spring retreat, where we did the ending suffering workshop, and i wanted to share something that has dawned on me since leaving and applying the work to "my life." That this living "drama" I have about wanting to work hard and complete this and that but not wanting to do it is all an idea! I mean yeah, no shit it's an idea, but it's literally just the effect that I'd live within as a constantly thought thought that I don't need to think and I can just be one with enjoying shit and working. Its that easy. It started with me going after what was immediate, that there is a suffering here that I can cut that out and stop making excuses FOR it. So I really started to and have been thRowing myself into it, and the funny thing is, is that that opens up. It didn't just end with what I immediately thought it would, ergo the immediate suffering. Coming from the more complete place, I started to see life from this way, and then I sort of dropped this "drama" idea and have been working AND enjoying myself, more unified in that that's ACTUALLY what I want to do. A little flavor of consciousness in there, if you will. Anyway, I just wanted to share that. I look forward to any gleaning new insights or breakthroughs available. Much love